I will be doing custom photos this week as a step in the "you need to love yourself or you're going to die" challenge I've given myself!
3 custom photos for $5
7 custom photos for $10
Send a tip + photo instructions via DM!
[please allow 24hrs for me to take the photos]
I'm taking her home with me
All dressed in white
She's got everything I need
Pharmacy keys
She's fallen hard for me
I can see it in her eyes
She acts just like a nurse
With all the other guys ππποΈ
so I had 40 more pics to post and they're all gone. one of my best sets. today I feel broken.
here are some pics I took, trying to get a new profile photo for twitter. I have spent the entirety of today, crying and angry but you'd never guess it in these pics.
send a tip to make me smile.
Today is the one year anniversary of the death of a very close friend of mine. I am feeling rather broken, remembering how good of a good human was taken, making more room for the overabundance of assholes who seem immortal.
There is some guilt. Could have I aided in changing the outcome of my poor, mentally ill friends fate? (Doubtful. Never send the mentally ill to help the mentally ill, that's how we multiply, like asexual plants budding smaller versions of themselves, only to have them grow into mentallyillΒ².)
My upset conflicts with my schedule so, against my better wishes, I do not think I will be able to make any new content today. Also, I may not be very active/responsive to comments/DMs until tomorrow. It makes me nervous. Having a set schedule is very important to how I function, but I do not make content that feels unnatural. You deserve me at my most fun self, my weird self, my ~sexy~ self, not a depressed mess with a fake grin.
Thank you for your continued support and understanding. It means so, so much to me. Truly. Without you, I would be stressed beyond belief. Your subscriptions and tips are what pays my bills, and those who rebill ease my mind even more, knowing that their support is to continue. Thank you so much. This year I'll be 5yrs clean and sober, a milestone my friend was never able to reach. With the stress relief you help provide, I'll be able to smile as I celebrate year five, I hope you'll all still be here to enjoy that day with me.
I'll stop being sappy now.
I hope you have a pleasant day.
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Thank you for bearing with me during this tumultuous mental plague I've been dealing with. I've been so uninspired and depressed and I'm trying to find motivation to feel better.
To say, "thanks!" for your support, I will be making audio recordings for just $5! Do you have a short script? An idea I could turn into a story? Or perhaps you'd like to hear me moan, moan your name, talk about kinks, answer questions, etc! Just leave a $5 tip [or more if you think I'm cute π] then send a DM with what you'd like to hear!
[NO RACISM - P*DOPHILIA - B*ASTIALIRY]
Want to get addicted to my scent? My taste? You'll enjoy the first pair so much, I'm sure you'll be ordering the next pair soon after... so make sure to take advantage of these special prices! π If there are extras you want but weren't mentioned, ask nicely and I'm sure I can grant you a wish or two~
If I make you smile, make you hard, make you lustful, make you want to sin so deliciously... worship me. Thank me for showing you my holes. Thank me for dedicating all private moments to you. Thank me for turning my pleasure and fantasy and fun into something for you to enjoy as well. It's Sunday, put some sweetness in the offering dish~ π
DEPRESSED. STRESSED. IMMUNOSUPPRESSED. in pain + 2 days of no gain. I am so sick of coming off as so pathetic. Whiny. Needy. That's not me. Fear around monetary distress is controlling me. Pain stops me from being productive. I'm losing sleep. Feeling unwell. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT! F U C K T H A T. I am beautiful. I am bizarrely beautiful. Weirdly wonderful. Freakishly fantastic. I deserve respect. No more messages about why I should bend over backwards for you, unless you give me reason to do so. I love to spoil, but I deserve to be spoiled! I could be INCREDIBLE. I could be AMAZING. I can be the magical creature I've been in the past! I just need some encouragement!
What do you like? What do you want to see more of? If you rebill, have you gotten your free genital rate? I want more fun! Isolation is mandatory, but with your help I could make this a much more fantastical setting.
I wish I could describe how I feel. Mentally and physically, I hurt. I am tense. Always tense and anxious. Flex every muscle in your body and focus intently on your current biggest worry... then you will have an idea.
Please help me by sending ideas, tips, encouragement, monetary tips, and whatever else could better this for both of us. π
downloaded reddit again. my DMs were filled with disrespectful comments, insults on my appearance, r*pe comments, and rudeness... as usual!
whenever you send a tip, it means I do not have to use reddit!
the bigger the tip, the longer I get to go without downloading the app again.
the longer I go without downloading the app, the better my self esteem gets.
the better my self esteem is, the better my content gets!
To whom it may concern...
my mental health is waning due to the (irrational?) fear that I must CONSTANTLY be promoting my content, or else I will not find new subscribers, buyers, and tippers, which will lead to unpaid bills.
But, I do not want to be 5150'd. I refuse to relapse. I have to get a grip on the overwhelming stress that is worsening my mental health and physical pain.
If you enjoy my posts, please help support me while I make changes, and break habits, because I cannot take many more consecutive days of suffering.
I'll be found online, but I'm hoping to keep it closer to 2hrs a day, rather than 12hrs a day.
This, of course, will not interfere with my daily uploads to onlyfans, or my appreciation of any tips [sent with your username in the notes.] I want this to feel less like a daunting, 8am - 9pm job from hell, and more like an enjoyable way to make a living by creating art.
sincerely,
a very scrambled egg π₯