Swipe to undress me 🪴 If you zoom in on the last pic, I’ve ..
Swipe to undress me 🪴
If you zoom in on the last pic, I’ve got hearts in my eyes
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nastyavalentine posts
I try to alternate my emo long Cyberhorny posts and my thott..
I try to alternate my emo long Cyberhorny posts and my thotty posts so here’s some basic mirror nudes 💋💙
Also friendly reminder that liking my posts is FREE and I appreciate it a lot so if you see this and like it it would make me really happy and validated 🤍🪞
Cute throwbacks from my bday 💕🌸💕 I wanna go back to this hot..
Cute throwbacks from my bday 💕🌸💕 I wanna go back to this hotel so bad 😭 I know I must sound like such a depressive fucking cuck but I’m thankful for many little things in my life - I don’t have the invisible advantages that many people do to get ahead in life, but I at least live with integrity and independence. I’m sick of it being so hard all the time and I fully understand when people feel like they have no way out besides ending it themselves. The world and our society is rigged against 99% of people and we fucking deal with it. Survival is already a lot. Sometimes I’m like wtf is even the point of practicing gratitude if life will over and over again kick my ass?
But I must have a shred of optimism somewhere because I’m still thankful for:
🌸My cats, having emotional support animals without whom I’d be a goner
🌸Little things like having a new shampoo that smells really good and smelling that on my hair throughout the day
🌸Starting the day with gaming or watching tv and feeling relaxed
🌸Rare trips to somewhere and looking back fondly on trips that I’ve taken in the past
🌸The people in my life who actually truly legitly care about me
🌸Being of service: one of the most important things we can do as humans is help others, human or animal. I feed outdoor cats from my kitten’s colony once a month or so when I can
🌸Having all the basic necessities I need, roof over my head, car, etc
🌸Workers of the world uniting one day???? And overthrowing the upper class??? My dream
🌸Good films, books, music that I haven’t yet listened to or that I should revisit
🌸Taking walks
🌸The days which I have no health problems
🌸Cute clothes, wholesome clothes, sexy clothes
🌸Random tips from people on here (every time you tip a SWer you make their day) or cute wishlist gifts
🌸Knowing that at least my generation will die off before the demise of the planet … maybe … we will witness (and arguably *are witnessing* ) an interesting end of days that’s for sure
🌸Endings also being beginnings
🌸Baby seals 🦭
🌸MEMES !!!!!
🌸The existence of this beautiful hotel and me being sexy in it
What are you grateful for in life?
Existential question: What are your life goals?
My life goal is to be healthy and safe.
🌹💕 Long Cyberhorny video, pictures of my tits lest you forge..
🌹💕 Long Cyberhorny video, pictures of my tits lest you forget how hot I can be, and pictures of stuff that I posted a year+ back when I first started my OF. I recorded my quarantine Tesla album and put the footage on OF (my pinned post Hentai and Crack is the result of this). I’m grateful for those of you here who appreciate the dovetailing of my art and porn in earnest 🌹
A message that needs to be heard btw: artists — if you only make one work or gig once a year, you still legit to me. Fuck this capitalist hustle and grind culture, this system needs to die and collapse or else a livable future for humanity is not possible.
My favorite place to lurk, the r/antiwork subreddit haha illustrates these points so well. What’s happening between employers and workers is incredibly fucked up, the wage disparity and income distribution of the US is pathetic and laughable, and (understatement of the century) people are having a hard time living. The few people in power in this world, beyond the bourgeoisie class even, have their head so far up their ass they can’t see or just sociopathically refuse to acknowledge that this is another existential risk to the planet. There really should be a proletariat revolution in a perfect world, but the flaw currently is there no central figure to lead one, whatever movement there may be is decentralized and has many divergent views that argue with one other.
Capitalism does its job really fucking well in keeping people who can unionize/organize/revolutionize unable to do so. Even in the 2020 protests there were so many different factions that it didn’t seem like a coherently unified whole. One would think that internet would be amazing for connecting people, but I think (hopefully I am proven wrong about this) in terms of organizing it’s actually very disorganized. We will see if, once the boomer generation goes, things will change.
What radicalized me? I’ve asked myself this question a lot, where my views came from and how they evolve to be more nuanced over time. My high school AP world history / AP us history / AP government teacher was this boomer, maybe even older, who was really actually an amazing educator and definitely deserved more credit and pay, kind of broke it open for me when he said capitalism is money-ism. That’s all it is. There’s no humanity in it. It is simply the pursuit of money, a system designed to perpetuate greed and lust and doing anything under the sun to attain more of it, doesn’t matter if it’s ethical as long as you make money. We read a lot of those Sinclair/Orwell/Huxley books in those classes, I was introduced to Freud and Jung in AP psych as well, and though I forget in detail, the concepts still stick with me. It’s crazy, I always did really well in school, I had above a 4.0gpa, and I also carried a deep cynicism for the educational system with the feeling that in this capitalist society my good grades were pointless cause I didn’t grow up with rich supportive parents or any invisible advantages. I was right, I’m doing porn to pay off my massive student loans 🙃
This platform isn’t making me wealthy but it allows me to live my life in an easier way than a 9-5 (I’ve just expressed this in a previous post) and as much shit as people want to talk about having an OnlyFans, it’s truly amazing to me to be able to work from home and make a small living doing something I enjoy and also talking about shit like cybersex and Carl Jung while being dressed cute and slutty.
Carl Jung’s concept of enantiodromia is when certain things revert to their opposites over time, like a matriarchal society turning into patriarchal one and then back, or like me posting a lot of creative stuff that primarily makes me happy, and then porn that satiates the male gaze and panders to my viewers, and then a lot of creative stuff to center myself again. Now I am kind of doing both and it’s a delicate balance but one I consider pretty natural to me.
Also, there is a pair of stockings that I love which I have been missing one of the stockings from for a few weeks, and my cat just dragged the missing half from her hiding/stashing spot. I cackled lol moments like this make my days bearable.
Btw I am not ignoring any messages — I am feeling rather intense burnout as I am online 12+ hours a day most days, these past few weeks were really tough and I meant to take a break a lot earlier, and I’m taking a semi-break of sorts. I’d rather log on fewer times a day and have clearer conversations and better mental health, than arbitrarily bang out a response “just because I have to”. I will get to you, I’m only a human lol I have a life outside of this although sometimes it may not seem like it because OF can be consuming. I will prioritize messages about customs and if there are any requests I will do those soon 💗
Messages with tips get pinned to the top of my inbox so I usually read those first, but I do respond to everything even if it takes my adhd ass a while. Sometimes the “how are you” “how is your day” ones are kind of like …… tbh I don’t really know what to say cause I don’t wanna lie and say my day was good when it has been sucking ass haha
Little cat update 🖤 😸 Wholesome post along with the horny on..
Little cat update 🖤 😸 Wholesome post along with the horny ones.
Little Lola! I call her little sardine too lol she’s growing but still so small 🥺🥺
My depression nap buddy… she really is an emotional support animal. Feels like all I’ve been doing this week is depression naps that last long and knock me out deeply, I’m glad to have her to cuddle with. Those purrs are so therapeutic just listen in the videos. She sleeps next to me and purrs and if I have a nighttime anxiety or something I’ll just hold her. She also has such crazy zoomies lmao but it’s balanced out by cuddly time
It’s so cute how she hugs me with her paws and explores my apartment and gets more comfortable… ueheheyqijsjdjw usually I have such a stoic demeanor but when it comes to kittens I’m like * loses my shit *
Happy Sunday morning to all ethereal goth girl lovers 🖤 ever..
Happy Sunday morning to all ethereal goth girl lovers 🖤 everyone else happy Sunday morning I guess :/
Don’t watch if you don’t like drooling, succking, or sacrilege! This Jesus dildo…. Literally… holy fuck ✝️
When he says SEND RUNES… A bosom for m’lord, and elf prince..
When he says SEND RUNES…
A bosom for m’lord, and elf princess fantasy nudes 💙💫💫 am I the fairest maiden thine has ever seen in any magical land? 🧝♀️
Two long conversational videos with @katarinaishii 💕 Tip $5 ..
Two long conversational videos with @katarinaishii 💕 Tip $5 or more if you enjoyed these videos and want to see more like this 🥰 I know that the long wholesome /analytical stuff isn’t for everyone but hope some of you enjoy this :) 🖤 Almost an hour long :o
Also today is Russian Christmas! 🌟 I’ll do something chill since my US Christmas was so rife with pet worries and stress… 🎄 с рождеством ))🎄
ENTER MY MATRIX Y OR N ??? 🖤❎ ⛓🖤 Someone asked me if this c..
ENTER MY MATRIX Y OR N ??? 🖤❎ ⛓🖤
Someone asked me if this career choice was “right for me” given my mental fragility and the amount of emphasis on “likes” and looks in this field, and I have a lot to say about this. This is like what my whole Cyberhorny thesis is about! While a bit presumptuous, it is a good question and one I have thoroughly thought about as well. I have the self awareness to realize online work does a number on the serotonin/dopamine receptors your brain, but I’ve been doing this long enough to be used to it and in most cases transcend it. Our neural wiring gets very fucked up in the cyber world and the validation machine (many jobs are online now too and unfortunately looks and likes are as emphasized on LinkedIn/the workplace as they are on OF/sex work), but I also think it’s important for me to make art and writing about this because few people do and it’s a major topic that needs to be discussed.
Also, I enjoy what I do. I wouldn’t ask anyone “hey are you sure is this the right career path for you? I think maybe you should do something else” … There is a perceived false intimacy that you get from interacting with me here because I share quite a bit about myself, overshare sometimes, but really y’all don’t know the full story. You know an iota of my Internet personality. You will project certain things on me, like fantasies and assumptions, and I don’t mind. As long as you’re nice to me (or your critique has a logical backing and not just ad hominem attacks) I genuinely enjoy these interactions.
It’s strange being vulnerable online about things like my psyche and meta analysis about my job. As far as my depression goes, this line of depressive thinking would happen to me no matter any profession I am in. I would rather do something I really enjoy like this, than something I fucking hate — here, I am more able to express my grievances, whereas in another line of work I would hold it in (it would be fairly inappropriate to be “vulnerable” with vanilla job like waitress or lawyer clients, just think about it) and honestly I think that is worse. So yes I may candidly complain, but in the grand scheme of things I am self aware enough to know that the depressive episodes are temporary, failure and success is cyclical, I will still have my mental illness regardless of what I do in life. All I can do is my best to manage myself and use the tools I’ve learned in therapy.
This is *THE BEST POSSIBLE* profession for me at this moment in time based on three factors: enjoyability, lucrativeness, and physical ease of work.
I am creatively and intellectually passionate about what I do. Digital parasocial sexuality is an unexplored terrain and I want to be a pioneer, a psychonaut of this in a way. My porn has aesthetic and sentimental value to me.
The ability to make a living working from home is essential to me and I cannot emphasize that enough. I can’t do 9 to 5 work, I have a hard time holding down jobs that are easy for most “normal” people, and I get exhausted easily. Chronic fatigue sucks ass. Working from home is a godsend. Yes I wish I was more popular and more lucrative and yes I wish other things in my life (like having rich supportive parents) were a possibility. But for the most part I’m happy with my work. I understand the curiosity about whether this is right for me, but at the risk of sounding like a bitchy cunt it’s no one’s business but my own.
This is an interesting topic and I know several of you think about this which is why I am posting such a long thing again lol, but you don’t have to worry about whether it is right for me! It is.
The issue here is not others’ perceptions of my compatibility with this profession, but rather my mental and physical illnesses that grate at the compatibility of me and *any* profession. The second I truly stop wanting to do this, I will, and I do have times when I want to give up. In a major sense my wanting to give up extends to life in general, the first thing to go being my work. I do believe I am strong enough to continue, it just takes a tremendous amount of effort from me. After the pressure and the stress I’ve endured in the past year(s) I would have a mental breakdown no matter field I was in. I’ve already had several meltdowns and it just happens that here on my OF for better or worse you have access to a slice of them 😪
The past few weeks especially have been difficult for me, the holidays really weigh and strain on my psyche, and coupled with these being the slowest months of the year in sex work it makes sense that it comes out in my emotional posts haha
So I just want to clarify! I know what I’m doing. I willfully enjoy doing this. This is my job and how I make my living. I may not be the best creator but I love my job. I believe I am allowed to complain about it too, as most people naturally complain about work and even a dream job will never be perfect, although maybe I should stop posting long emotional things because vulnerability is an easy target for people to be rude and disrespectful. Obviously I will not be doing OF forever but I want to make it last as long as possible while I’m attractive to you, lucid enough to create amazing work, and have passion for what I do.
Thank you for coming to my Ted talk 🖤💚
Swipe for super cute pictures of my kitten in the second half of this post 🥺 🎀 💕
💗 some of my artistic videos 💗 I keep having the same drea..
💗 some of my artistic videos 💗
I keep having the same dream: rescuers are calling, but the rescued cannot hear. what does it mean?
I’m gonna post something much more positive and awesome toda..
I’m gonna post something much more positive and awesome today: I was visited by my friend and fellow creator @katarinaishii 💖 ^o^ we got to hang out, talk, and take cute pics 💕 🌴
I was really happy that Kat visited and we got to connect about a myriad of things, she’s so cute and even got me a bunch of kawaii (and practical!) cat stuff 🥰 I got her a cat notebook and a book that I translated from Russian — she loves to read and I admire her intellectual tenacity. (She read almost 100 books last year!! :o How cool is that)
Swipe for a few videos of us talking about a bunch of random shit on my Pokémon-infested bed lol and my little couch ✨ She’s intimidatingly popular, smart, and gorgeous and her page is 🔥 so I’m super happy she likes my stuff. I loved talking to her about all kinds of topics 💕
In the video snippets we’re just talking about random stuff: life, family, OF, mental health things, Pokemon, Russian cartoons... should I post the full length wholesome videos? (one is 26 min, one is 32 min) ✨
I am going to the dentist today, please wish me luck omg 🥺🥺
Sorry about my absence yesterday, I was not in a good place. There were a lot of people (when it rains it pours and it was like all kind of happening at one) who demanded a lot from me and more than I could give, wanting “more for less” and encroaching on my boundaries, so I kind of imploded and my confidence deflated. I knew that if I stayed online I would say more stupid and toxic shit so I just took the day off. I get so self-conscious sometimes because p much all my creator friends are super popular and successful, and I consider myself a major failure in life, which my parents also always conditioned me to feel. I get triggered by a lot of irrational things and I'm sorry for being such an emotional wreck! Ngl after I made that post yesterday I logged off for the whole day, cried a lot, and took a several hour depression nap. I feel better coming back and I thank you so much if you're patient with me and kind to me. All of this is in part why I’m in therapy and working on myself.
Perhaps one day I’ll do more GG content which is more popular and lucrative — alone I know how to film myself but I get shy in front of the camera with others sometimes cause I’m afraid to look fat or hideous. I need to get over my insecurities, both mentally and physically, and it's tough. My goal is to do more sexy cute girl collabs, maybe next time we’ll do a sexy shoot ;) Enjoy the more wholesome stuff 🥰
Tip $5 or more if you want to see a video of me changing out of my clothes in front of my friend 🙈🤍
Thank you Kat for visiting me 💕
Maybe one day I’ll visit her. Also those Slowpokes kiss and it’s so adorable 💗😂 💋 💖
I’m feeling extremely fucking underappreciated today. I work..
I’m feeling extremely fucking underappreciated today. I work very hard on my content for people to want more more more, for pennies. I understand that it’s a tough financial time right now, believe me I know the feeling of being poor and wanting a good deal, but it’s insulting and depressing.
Sorry in advance that I’m not a beacon of positive energy and good vibes. I’m in a really low mood this morning, I don’t know how long this episode will last but thank god everything is temporary. Probably I will delete this post later. I know long winded posts like this where I am of spiraling mental health and feeling deep in depression make me lose subscribers, but I need to state this because there are people who have problems paying sex workers or even seeing them as a human being and as a whole this problem is bigger than my stupid little thoughts and feelings.
If you cannot afford a sex work experience, don’t live above your means. Beyond the monthly sub price, tips are optional. Encouraged but optional. Still, tips of $2, $3 are a slap in the face. Usually I laugh at these little tips cause I get them occasionally, but lately I’ve been getting it a lot and it makes me feel very demotivated and demoralized. I don’t expect generous tips from the average consumer but it hurts to get these minuscule amounts (with an expectation of me sending explicit content) because when OF takes the 20% pay cut that’s like $1.60 or $2.40 lol … would you tip a waitress or server that amount, and they are not even nude? You tip your postmates driver more than that. Don’t tip at all then just lurk and jerk. I give away so much already. I don’t even want to post nudes now because I already have 5000+ explicit content and the amount of work I put into this is not even appreciated enough. Do you guys even enjoy what I do? At least a genuine comment or a heartfelt message that what I do is valued would be nice, if you can’t afford to tip.
Having a price tag on everything is already dystopian and getting worse every year — along with commodity fetishism and market value it becomes a daunting task reconciling our existence with a monetary value. Maybe I should post my Karl Marx and Lenin videos again.
What makes a sex worker seem “cheaper” than a diner waitress or a salon worker or an uber driver?
My fundraiser from the new year is not even half way there, did you guys hate the videos? Should I stop making them and give up on doing this?
As much as I want to people-please, and cater to the male gaze, and create an atmosphere of excellent service, it very much sucks to be taken for granted. I love doing this and I am very genuinely thankful for my subscribers but recently I feel like I’ve been cast aside or like you guys are tired of me. Are you over me? Am I sucking ass contentwise? If there is constructive criticism I would like to hear it, but it’s very demoralizing to have less likes, comments, and tips.
I try to make my posts have a balance between solicitous and gratuitous. I need to make money in order to survive, I don’t get help from family and I’m on my own — but I also want to please my viewers and I will go above and beyond to do so. You wouldn’t go into a grocery store and say hey I bought pasta can I get the pasta sauce for free? And the parmesan too, oh and can I also get a discount on the silverware? ….. I know viewers want explicit content and I truly love making and creating it, but if it’s not going to be appreciated I won’t want to post it.
I try to see things from your point of view, being a consumer myself. I believe that I do a good job of humanizing my subscribers— technically I don’t have to talk to anyone or answer messages at all, what you pay for is the subscription to my sexual content and access to my page. I answer every message and am active in my replies — some days I respond less if I am busy irl or am dealing with depression or a personal medical issue. Still, I almost never skip days and I give you guys a lot of myself, my time, my body, my energy. If you cannot understand that or put yourself in my place, then idk what to say.
Most of you are wonderful and when I say I’m happy and grateful to have you on here, I truly mean it. But the entitlement of some people to demand more content, more explicit content, because of the logic that porn is free elsewhere, is laughable. Yes obviously porn is free elsewhere - go on phub and jerk off if I don’t provide what you want. What I provide is a unique experience that you can’t get anywhere else. It’s the same type of people who sit at a strip club and just watch and don’t tip — it’s insulting to our line of work, which is a already stigmatized and punchlined. Men have created this market, this demand for porn, many complain that it’s still not enough when a model doesn’t do things they see don’t by professionals on phub.
Hiring a SW in real life cost hundreds, thousands. Granted, online you can’t physically touch or fuck the camgirl, but the concept of sexual and personal fulfillment can be fulfilled in a custom video — and if you’ve ever gotten one from me, you know I make some of the best custom videos known to OF. I can’t do irl work right now because of my health conditions. There is a lot about myself that I’m debilitated by and extremely insecure about, but I know that I am extremely fucking good at my job, I am a preternatural sex goddess, I can do the best cock rate or custom video fantasy of your life. The porn I make is creative and incredible. Not to shit on other creators, but I offer something unique that is rare to this platform. I guess people don’t like uniqueness and prefer generic, easily digestible stuff. If you disagree with me, let me know.
I am sorry to sound like a whiny bitchy cunt but I want to make it clear that I’m a human too and not a sex robot behind the screen. OF is not an easy job like many think it is. The concept of overvaluing/ undervaluing is a predicament and I don’t want to do either.
I know December/January are the slowest months in sex work but if it continues to be this demoralizing in the next months of the year I’m going to quit because it looks like I don’t provide value to anyone on here anymore. I enjoy making content and communicating with you guys but the moment it stops being enjoyable for me I’m done. I just want to be appreciated, is it too much to ask for?
Couch potato … would you watch me, or join me? Tip me $5 or..
Couch potato … would you watch me, or join me?
Tip me $5 or more if you think I’m cute when I’m using a vibrator to make myself moan and cum, and you want to see more videos like this 😘
BUSSIN New Year! 🥰🎇 Happy 2022 to y’all ✨💖 This honestly wa..
BUSSIN New Year! 🥰🎇 Happy 2022 to y’all ✨💖
This honestly was one of the most low key new years I ever had. I stayed at home and this is the extent of how I “party” lol 🥂 💗
What did you think of my videos from yesterday? I would love any support for my fundraiser if you think the content I make is worthwhile for you, I’m trying my best to create titillating content that you’ll love 💕🌙
It's been a long, *hard* year... Wack ass year but I am guil..
It's been a long, *hard* year... Wack ass year but I am guilty of having the cutest pouty pussy pics of 2021 ⚔️
What are your New Years resolutions? 🖤
🍰 omg cakes!!! 🍰 🍰 I look so derpy in some of those lmao bu..
🍰 omg cakes!!! 🍰 🍰
I look so derpy in some of those lmao but … CAKES!
🎂 casual nudes + slice of life pics 🎂
swipe all the way for cozy holiday wholesomeness and my very own cakes 👼🏻
Horny xxx elf video and check in, how did I do this year? 🖤 ..
Horny xxx elf video and check in, how did I do this year? 🖤 I have over 1000 posts on OnlyFans and over 5000 media for you to look at now, ranging from casual nudes, emo posts, dense intellectual writings, full length sex videos, optional extras, cosplays, memes, ass pics, pussy pics, the saga of my Tesla album, my art, random minutiae of my inner world, and more. It’s wild to me how some people still don’t think I have enough content but oh well. I respond to each message and try to go above and beyond to make my subscribers feel special and humanized. (AND HORNY!) Watch me masturbate dressed as a sexy elf!
🌟Let me know… 😉 If you think I’m doing a good job on this here OF page you can leave me a little tip to show your appreciation 🖤 Do I get a christmas bonus or a lump of coal?
$5 - you did a really good job this year :)
$20 - you did a great job this year and made me smile/cum/intrigued ✨ ♪(๑ᴖ◡ᴖ๑)♪
$69 - you did an amazing job this year and beyond, your hard work does not go unnoticed 🖤 🌈 ✨ 💗
All contributed tips will go towards my dental and pet care, thank you so much. I had a dental crown complication that needed a more advanced procedure than expected, and my Carl has an eosinophilic granuloma that concerns me even more than the tooth pain, I took him to the vet twice this past week. Those medical bills have decimated me and even reaching ~200$ would be extremely helpful right now. ❤️
A drama free post: Merry Christmas! ❤️🎄 How are you spending..
A drama free post: Merry Christmas! ❤️🎄 How are you spending the holidays? I am tipsy laying in bed horizontally with my big animal laying on my belly. Cheers 🥂
2021-12-25 07:11:55 +0000 UTC View PostBound + gagged christmas angel 👼🏻 and some videos/slow mo’s ..
Bound + gagged christmas angel 👼🏻 and some videos/slow mo’s I almost didn’t post. My toxic, evil, Eating Disordered thinking was activated today for the first time in months maybe year+ … relapses in addiction (I would consider EDs in the same vein of mental illness as addiction) are often caused by stress, holidays often cause me stress and having to take my Carl to the vet twice this week has zapped me of my will to power. I’m feeling better now but I had a moment earlier today that was kind of scary. I was thinking that at least my dental pain will disallow me eating for the next few days/week/how long can I stretch it to lose weight. I used to be very thin, and while I am better recovered physically, my brain is not impenetrable from self hurtful thoughts, especially when under extreme stress.
This masochistic self inflicting pain process is synchronous somehow with the BDSMy shoots, although in BDSM the pain is agreed upon and logically, pleasurably inflicted with aftercare, and with mental illness it just sucks. I am channeling the principles of aftercare and what I learned in therapy to level up my evening.
This is why I am in therapy, why I invest in it, why I ask for help with it, why I advocate for it. I’ll likely do a pet bills fundraiser thing soon, I filmed some videos I’d normally describe as sexy and hot but today I’m not in the mood so I will post them and coordinate later.
Hope you enjoy these pics, what do you think of my xxmas angel?
I’m sorry if I brought down the mood💘 I promise I will be more festive after this, just let me have this emo moment 😪 might delete later … who else is having a stressful/emotionally taxing holiday? You’re not alone. I am tending to a large wounded animal. I myself am also a large wounded animal.
I am going to the dentist … please wish me luck 😵💫😵 Sexy vi..
I am going to the dentist … please wish me luck 😵💫😵 Sexy vignettes posted in advance bc most likely I will be on pain meds and out of commission tonight haha
What do you think of these casual nudes? Friendly reminder that liking my posts is *Free* and helps me a lot, and if you go like a bunch of my posts I may have a special little surprise for you <3
Some hustle to be seen… I grind to disappear. Casual nudes, ..
Some hustle to be seen… I grind to disappear. Casual nudes, slice of life pics. Mostly with my kitten. Swipe all the way for nude video clips. Something for everyone haha 💖
I’ll be posting my writing, thoughts, and random vignettes and experts from my Cyberhorny project along with my digital porn. If I made you think or made you cum, or both 😏, it’s a win for me.
The biggest thing I get out of being online is being able to relate to people with the same mento iwwnesses as me and spread some type of empathy for those who are suffering. The unique thing about OF is it provides a parasocial connection, so you can connect with your favorite digital porn stars.
I know you are 99% here for porn. My porn is just a distraction, but it can also be healing. Sex is a healing modality, sex workers can be healers. Porn can be an incredible outlet, or a sprawling addiction, depending on how you frame things societally. Our culture is obsessed with its aesthetics and visuals, yet porn is derided and many are quick to blame porn stars for addition and toxicity.
Don’t hate the player, hate the game. We do what we can to survive in a system that is built on inequality and exploitation. By taking control of our production, our intellectual property, and our incomes, we create a polarizing space of “empowerment” and “condemnation”. Many creators feel empowered to start an OF for fun and sexual expression, others do so because of the believe there is quick easy money in this. Most do it for financial gain, which is totally valid, but in no way whatsoever is SW easy money or a light dalliance. It requires a tough psychological makeup and there’s a reason most people in the field retire early.
I know the meta analysis and deconstruction of this cyber reality turns some of you off, which is why I balance it with nudes. It’s endlessly fascinating to me tho.
Many people assume that irl SW like dancing or escortting/FSSW will be an easy transition to OF/camming, and while there certainly are some overlaps like the major concept of selling a sexual fantasy, the fact is there is a different skill set used for each reality, the corporeal and the digital. Irl SW demands a healthy body, charming attitude, diplomatic client relations, quick thinking, and seeing all possible perspectives in order to be safe and strategize. Digital SW is a numbers game of advertising and social media skills (there is still a customer service approach, tho). It is easier for disabled and neurodivergent people. It is more degrading to me posting cringe advertising than it is posting nudes of my body. My body is just a canvas and a medium.
I am happy with my experiences and I do wish to destigmatize all forms of sex work and the perception both men and women have of it. There is a lot of whorephobia that comes from not experiencing this field and not knowing, just judging. Sex is strange, it illicits polarizing reactions from people. For example, many men call irl providers trashy, desperate, sex addicted, immoral, and fear they are sexually diseased. I assure you that professional providers and dancers are not only viewing sex with a professional and logical eye, they in most cases take better sexual health care than the random hookup on tinder. All interactions are transactional, financially or otherwise; the difference in SW is that workers are aware of them and handle them with a different kind of openness. We’re human beings, we’re workers, we’re sluts, we’re artists, we’re healers.
People will also assume that experiences in any form of SW - especially irl work - will make someone a more tarnished, worse person. Damaged goods. Filthy. In cases where the industry chews and spits ppl out, esp with middlemen, it may lead to a disgust of the entire industry, but from my own perspective this has been a much more ethical and professional field than most vanilla jobs I’ve worked. Right now, I am very happy doing OnlyFans and wish to do it for as long as I possibly am able to. If I get deplatformed, which happens all the time online, I will expand to other online sites. It is a privilege to work from home and I do not take it lightly. Digital SWers I believe should be respectful of their irl predecessors and also ponder their own views of internalized whorephobia. Online is a totally different realm, one on which many men feel entitled to my time and free content, but I do believe the energy I put out into the world draws for the most part respectful people to my page. You being an amazing group of subscribers makes me want to be a better creator. I course correct my content depending on the flow of the market.
If you’ve been following me for a while, you will probably have noticed the evolution of XXX-ness of my content. Irl, I don’t have to be naked online. Online is a different territory. When I started I barely posted titty pics, I was shy, in my past camgirl experience I was super shy too, and I slowly transitioned to showing more and now I post full nudes, full length videos (in campaigns like this one I will always post a full length video or several https://onlyfans.com/229444314/nastyavalentine and just look through my Videos section if you want to get off to the stuff on my feed).
The last poll I did was a very interesting experiment. I do my best to give you what you want, and what I can. I already post lots of explicit things on the feed, I will continue to do so, and I believe I am very generous with my content (critique me if you perceive me to be wrong) but you have to realize I can’t work for free lol. You can’t go into a coffee shop and say hey I paid for a coffee can I have a sandwich? The $12 for your subscription (less if you found me on sale) is pennies, man. I do my best to work with discounts for my full length content but if you want completely free porn, there are many outlets available online. Parasocial porn with quality production is a luxury and if you cannot afford it, please take care of yourself first and go jerk off on phub or to a cheaper creator.
I’m really thankful that most of you here are respectful of my work and boundaries and pay for the content I work hard on, so I will do my best to bring you the content you want and cater to your gaze while running my page the way I intend to. Thank you for reading if your eyes haven’t glazed over by now ❤️
What would you like to see more of from me in the new year? ..
What would you like to see more of from me in the new year? 🍃 I’m thinking about what to focus on and how to a better job at this. Unlike many creators I don’t have a strategy, I just do my stuff chaotically as best I can. It’s the most me thing to do but it unfortunately doesn’t make my page popular or lucrative. In all areas of my life I wanna try to improve cause I never think I’m good enough. At least here on OF what can I do better or do more of in your opinion?
2021-12-21 20:42:52 +0000 UTC View PostWhat’s for dinner? (Please say me) 🖤 I will be taking person..
What’s for dinner? (Please say me) 🖤 I will be taking personal time off from filming new content, so next time I send a ppv or curate a sex tape will be in 2022 🖤
I will be around and online, answering msgs and posting already existing stuff, just no new longform content as I am taking some time away from production. It’s been a long ass year and I’ve produced hundreds of media. Hopefully you’ve enjoyed it 😉
For the rest of the year I’ll just be posting fun stuff without solicitous tip prompts or focusing on trying to make money. I am too tired to consider business strategy. I just want to spend time with loved ones, post horny nudes and art, make music, work on my writing, and exist. I used to punish myself for taking breaks but my mind body and soul are signalling me to recharge my batteries for upcoming horny new year. Being in survival mode is tough. This year was a long one. I’m exhausted. I’m happy with the progress that I’ve made and continue to make, tho. Thank you for being here in my cyber home 🖤
I would love it if my last sex tape fundraiser of 2021 made its goal by the end of the year because it will go to my vet bills: https://onlyfans.com/229444314/nastyavalentine
My wish list is also in my bio and it’s never too late to get me some holiday gifts if you’re into that haha 💝🖤
Even if there are no more tips and no more gifts, I am incredibly proud of myself for not giving up despite all the times I’ve wanted to quit, both OF and life in general lol, and grateful to you for being on the page of a little obscure weirdo like myself. I have so many frustrations and feelings of failure when it’s slow, but so much is out of my control and I just have to accept it. I’m glad to have started therapy this year and to have made an outline of my Cyberhorny project (I’d you haven’t read it, please do, it’s a few posts back) 💗 Thanks for supporting me.
Videos from the cosplay/femdom campaign will be sent out once I get the items. I’ve already ordered them but it’ll take a while for them to ship so please bear with me! Thank you🥰
Y’all, REST is extremely important and invaluable and I feel like it never gets talked about cause our toxic ass grind culture praises workaholism 💗💖🥺 swipe for a dessert of some cute nude videos 💖💗🦔
Holy shit I just found my legendary first ever stream on OF!..
Holy shit I just found my legendary first ever stream on OF!! This was a year ago in my Tesla album era: I recorded, released, and live streamed an album in my Tesla while in lingerie/nude (see the pinned post on my profile). This is the performance stream of it and the first part is similar to my irl music shows. It devolves into an unhinged camgirl show tho, just watch lol
💚 What do you think?💚
Be my chair, puny human. I must sit on you. Honestly I didn..
Be my chair, puny human. I must sit on you.
Honestly I didn’t like these pics cause I look wide and chunky, but they’re kind of a vibe… what do you think, yay or nay? Felt mommy, might delete later 💛⛓
Cosplay and femdom harness fundraiser! I’ve been waiting for..
Cosplay and femdom harness fundraiser! I’ve been waiting for this Kill La Kill outfit to go on sale lol and I’ve gotten a few requests for femdom content, so I want to get the harness and let Mommy Nastya loose… who will be mommies special little toy?
$10 - personalized thank you (all contributions over $10 will get this)
$25 - personalized cosplay/submissive video
$33 - personalized femdom video
$69 - all of the above plus surprise bonus content!
Swipe for some of my cosplay pics and a Mommy Dom Nurse Joy video: POV I’m bossing you around at the Pokemon Center 🏥
I used to do a lot of skype domming sessions, with SPH, light degradation, cucking, and gentle aftercare - this part is extremely important! The domme role is not supposed to be entirely aggressive and harsh, there’s a kindness to it as well because it’s all about the sub’s pleasure - that being in pleasurably degraded, humiliated, consensually taken advantage of, etc. Imo people who take advantage of that and don’t listen to the sub’s signals are sociopathic - the nature of BDSM play is consensual power dynamics, not abusing the “weaker” person by ignoring safe words and boundaries. Aftercare in general, and checking in with your sub, is massively important. Being a Mistress is a delicate balance of good and evil!
I haven’t been doing the domming sessions in a while, but I’m feeling like rekindling that vibe via video content for you. I lean usually on the sub side but I’m a natural switch and I feel like it’s important to explore all those roles and crevices of the psyche 👀
Thank you so much if you contribute, I would loooove a new outfit and sex toy accessory to end 2021 with a bang
I’m a femdom fembot 🖤