Booba style pics from the anxiety pit to be featured at Cyber Castle 🦭💕🌱🏰 this installation will be there as a ball pit full of seal plushes to address the social anxieties of postcovid life; for those who are exhibiting signs of reacclimation nerves but still wanna party 🎉
I see a lot of postcovid (I hate that term) art that addresses the collective trauma we’re going through by *being social again* — my take on this is not everyone is ready to be social; I certainly am on edge about it. I had a panic attack a while ago and holding the Booba seal plushes helped. Maybe it can help someone else too. We all have different timelines of social comfort, and different thresholds of how much contact we have or even want. Personally, I like being alone at home and online. It’s going way out of my comfort zone to do an art event, but I feel aligned with it and I need to do this. Most of all I wanna have fun. So much of conceptual art takes itself to seriously; no need to be pretentious. One can be intellectual and still have an inviting, empathetic aura. Compassion is something our society lacks hard.
I’ve been wanting for a long time to design something ridiculous but meaningful to be interactive in my art shows. In my past performances I often had a bed on stage to lay down in if I have anxiety. I don’t think people understand how hard I struggle with it even tho I seem outgoing. I always want a space at the party to taken a breather and micro-decompress. Crash landed into the Booba pool 🦭
The giant foil mass on my bedroom wall rn is going to take over most of my apartment, and then be moved to the gallery space, to be exhibited as an installation as well ad a backdrop for the performances 🌟
I’m gonna be doing a music performance too, my first set of original tracks and first performance in over 2 years and I’ll be posting some of the production stuff here like I did with *Hentai & Crack 1* in 2020 early quarantine 🥺💞
It’s a lot of work but there’s nothing else I’d rather be doing rn. The big foil thing // the cybertumor, I’m sleeping in it. The pictures don’t do it justice yet, it looks insane. It’s a giant mass of chaos when looked at from afar, and when you get close up, you see distorted mirrors and fucked up lights and disorienting porn collages/Bernie Sanders/automatic writing/anime girls/physical manifestations of obscure corners of the internet. Basically a Nastya reality come to life lol
There are several installations I’m designing with the help of some of my friends, and THANK YOU GUYS for helping with the funding it’s seriously invaluable to me💕💕💕💕💕💕💕 I will post so many pics of the event and the prep leading up to it, and for the tippers on my art-related posts and campaigns I’ll have extra content for you of both the sfw and nsfw variety 💖
Counteracting emo post with feel good pics of sweet kitten 🥺💕
Have a great day! Take it easy 💝
PS. Are my posts showing up? I couldn’t see this one of my feed for a while so if my posts are showing up, slam them with a like to let me know you see 🥺
🌻 Actually thought I looked cute in this outfit and my body image was good for once.
In an industry that makes literally billions of dollars to capitalize on women feeling bad about themselves to the point of self harm, one of the biggest ways to rebel against society is to truly like yourself. It’s fuckin hard tho with the massive amounts of beauty propaganda we’re inundated with. I’m much happier with my body than I’ve ever been. Still, I get triggered when people call me “thicc” “juicy” “healthy” “curvy” despite those being compliments, sexually desirable, and in my own way of viewing women what I’m attracted to, but the perceptions I have of my own body have been fucked from an early age. I’ve written countlessly before even on here about my ED recovery, cause it’s important to talk about this type of shit in a visual industry / eurocentric beauty standard society where many of us suffer from it — how it is just as much a mental disease as a corporeal one, a psychological illness that manifests physically. It had almost nothing to do with being fat, as I’m small by nature, but so much to do with trauma, family approval issues, and personal agony. It just… became a desire to disappear. That impact is harder to break through than the physical healing, although the abuse of the body creates latent health consequences that sometimes don’t appear until years later. Sometimes I truly don’t give a fuck and think I’m an ethereal sex goddess, other times I can’t even look at myself without feeling nauseated. It takes a lot for me to feel my way into attractiveness, being no longer as thin.
But every year it gets a little easier for me to accept myself cause here’s the thing — I will notice that in actresses on some tv shows and online women and whatever, presentation of imperfection is important.
Even the “natural” looks in the media tho take makeup artists or content creators time and effort to create a “no makeup makeup” flawlessness. It’s an ~I woke up like this~ mirage.
It’s awesome and inspiring to see someone who’s weird looking feel good about themselves on the screen.
Under eye bags? Cellulite? Flat tits? A belly? Big nose? Chubby arms? Chicken legs? Skinny veiny hands? Fucked up teeth? Smile lines? The features that are so called flaws, when represented in the media, make others with such features feel good about themselves. Representation of societally perceived flaws (that are perfectly normal body things, and need not corrective beauty treatments) is extremely important. To be perceived can make one feel very vulnerable and exposed, especially since people who put themselves out there are an easy target.
When I see an unedited woman with fat rolls or dark eye circles, I feel better about mine. Cameras in HD not only add pounds turning a 3D human into a 2D image, but they’re often too honest. In a series of the same photo set, someone can look thin or thick. I usually film from below on a “mommy angle” which makes me look fatter, but I give less of a fuck now because I want to film myself and embody myself enjoying life. I’m glad I can talk about this with, for lack of a better word, a more empowered message and a recovered perspective. Still, I’m hyper aware of flattering/unflattering images that I post and an undeniable part of me concedes to the beauty prison and wants to look a certain way. It’s hypocritical. Ugh sorry for the emo ass rant but I have been feeling a certain way!! An analysis of being desirable. Each and every one of the small victories add up. Wanna fight these thoughts… brain got hands 🥊 😳
Anyway, I thought these pics were not too bad. 🖤 Mainly because the angles and lighting work for me but even from within I was feeling myself. Show me some love if you feel it too 🌻
I’m so excited!! Started fleshing out my art show *Cyber Castle* — this is a practice run of an installation, in my room. It’s gonna look radiant in the gallery space. 🌟 💕💖💫💞🥹✨
I have been feeling stressed as hell recently and doing creative work like this helps recharge my soul.
The art show is coming up in July and I’m finally in a place to be creating faithfully to my vision. It took me a long time to recover from artistic burnout and get here. I feel like a lost piece of myself has come back home, yet transcended into something completely new.
Lol this normally past my bedtime but I’m just so excited!! It’s a good feeling ( ◠‿◠ )☆
The days that are left in May I’m going to just take it easy, take a break, and recharge. Posts will still be scheduled and messages answered. I’ll be in rest mode from creating new OF content for the rest of the month, till June 💖 One of my favorite creators just returned from a five month break saying the results were fantastic, and while that amount of time is unrealistic for me cuz I don’t have that kind of popularity or cushioning, I’m inspired to take a substantial break of my own.
These days I’m inspired to live even harder as my true self without fear or restraint, embody what I represent, take proper self care, and create the art I fucking want to. Authenticity and relaxation despite capitalism’s oversaturation of advertisements/data and emphasis on overworking is a way to combat pain. Life that is lived in stress, goal worship, overwork, and chronic pain, is not only not worth living, it lowers the quality of the content being made, and I always only want to make 💯 bomb ass shit 🔥💞
Thank you for all your support of my work, porn, and art — whether it be tips, likes, kind messages, or wishlist purchases. I added some things for the show; if you get me an item, I can arrange a special treat or a personalized thank you 💕
Here is a little slice of Cyber Castle 🏰🌟💕 The tippers of my CC fundraisers will also get specialized exclusive content as it gets created.
Hiiii 💕 I have some delicious new content for you, tis my last May tip goal. I’m trying to fund an art show so these are both artistic AND very horny 🥵 🔥
(Both horizontal and vertical format videos! Lol)
There’s been construction for water damage in my house going on for over a week now (two weeks? Idk what is time) and it’s caused my some very unsexy allergic reactions. It also had me restrict my household of multiple indoor cats: while the tent was up, and the paint was drying, my cats had to be secured in my room. I know the noise and smells and chemicals disturb them, I’ve been disrupted by it too.
Anyway today I tried to use that to my content making advantage and filmed some SFW and NSFW content in the empty liminal ass space where my living room once was: nude ballerina video of me practicing ballet (I’ve still got it) 🩰 , a mock “OnlyFans audition” where I show you my sexual skills in a VERY intense and creamy orgasm 🙈, and several twin Nastya videos: a schoolgirl set, and a “prom proper dame watching a slutty goth slut and feeling some feels”. Nothing like sexual tension between two Nastyas!
$10 collection of the SFW content!
$35 Jack rabbit OF audition video
$52 Double Nastya videos
$70 All of the above in a bundle ^
$105 All of the above + ALLL of the extra and BTS videos I shot today <333
Thank you so much 💕💕 I put a lot of effort into these from start to finish so I hope you like them 💕
I aim to be taking some time off from creating pornographic content around June/July, but until then, here is some hot content from yours truly 😘 🖤🦇
This is pretty much the hair color I had when I first stared OF and made Hentai and Crack 1 — the sequel is happening so it’s full circle 🖤💚🖤💚
Summer + winter are slower times in SW and I’m generally leaning into that. I’ll update you more when he time grows closer, and we’ll see. I’ll most likely be logging in but not making any NEW content and not taking any requests/closing my menu temporarily, so if you want a custom, cock rate, or more, now is a good time to message me your request. Every SW and every working person in the world needs a freakin time out every once in a while and I think a proper summer vacation is deserved. I have obvious anxiety about the financial situation cause I’m a small creator and I fear staring from scratch when I come back from a break, but being well-rested enough to be competent is more important. Again, thank you if you contribute, even the small tips add up <33
What did you think of the videos posted here?
If these aren’t quite your fantasy, you can request a custom video or service: they start at $50 and my menu is pinned to my profile! 💕
Some videos and a lil question for you! Do you prefer horizontal format videos, or vertical format? 💞
Also, is it because of the device you’re on? Mobile v desktop? Just trying to optimize the quality of my content so it’s the best for your viewing pleasure 😉
Hi!! These days I am attempting the arduous process of cleaning and overhauling my apartment. The water damage/construction drama kind of inspired me in a way to renovate the rest of my place and hardcore clean it. Did you like this video? Tip $5 or whatever you like if you enjoyed watching and would like to see some more outfit/lingerie changing videos 💕
Read that Vangelis, the composer for Blade Runner and overall synth pioneer, had passed away. RIP to one of the greats. I'll always save a special place in my heart for Blade Runner and the artificial phenomena of its Replicants. How beautifully the soundtrack captured the mood of the film. Here's my Pris cosplay, she's a perfect automaton babe and cyberpunk sex symbol🖤
Rainbow haired photo collection of the SWF and NSFW variety, as well as some kitty pics 😽 What have you been watching/listening to lately?
I’ve been watching Twin Peaks with the boys, and the Angelyne series (she’s an LA local legend but idk if ppl outside of Cali know her… Bimbo icon with pink corvette who marketed herself on billboards) 💕: I used to be her personal assistant when I got out of college, and the show’s details about her look/studio/persona/certain things she says are so accurate I am pretty shook. She was, for lack of a better word, absolutely crazy, but to some, madness goes hand in hand with genius.
I feel like I could write an essay about this woman — not in a slanderous tell-all way, but rather a cultural analysis. To me she embodies something completely beyond herself, and in her own words, “ripped the seams of the fabric of reality”.
Happy Sunday, the lord’s day of worship 🥰 🙏 Let me give you something to enjoy today 💕
Two of my recent campaigns are almost at their goal!! 🥺💕 They’re about 100$ away each, if either could reach the goal I would be so happy and reward you with some extra exclusive content!! 💕
Oh nothing, just thought some booty/upskirt blue hair pics were in order 💙 Sometimes there’s truly nothing intellectual I wanna convey coded beneath the NSFW content or subliminally hidden within the smut, I just feel like posting sexy/cute shit and I enjoy it. I like that people think I’m attractive. The feeling never gets old, it’s wild to me to be perceived as sexy
Like this post if you feelin the hair, the thigh highs, the glasses and you think I be looking cute 🤓💙
Wanna see my Twin Peaks? ( 🏔 )( 🏔 ) I want to get another room divider for privacy, and start funding my upcoming gallery art show, *CYBER CASTLE* 🏰💫💕🌟
It’s gonna be a multimedia conceptual art experience about the discontents of our cyberhorny e-world, brought to life by yours truly and artistic collaborators. We present an environment that’s unpretentious but allows the viewer to confront aspects of themselves through cultural critique and entertainment. It’s like an intellectual rave — horny DJs, distribution of zines and merch, visual art, music performance. I want to BUSSSSSSS the shit out of the idea that sex workers can’t make critiquable art. We fucking can, will, and do. CYBER CASTLE will be a living manifestation of that. My art shows precovid were always under a “Castle” theme — this is the seventh one. Lucky number? 💖
I will be curating and I have an audio/visual performance. Since I’m staring work on Hentai & Crack 2, and will be posting about that soon as well, you get to experience a variant of it, which to me adds to the meta-reality experience of the sultry internet.
I took some hot videos for you somewhat based on my last poll, and am giving you what you want:
A little bit of everything posted here (pillow humping, stripping, touching, gagging my mouth with panties, and a SFW video tour of my apartment one year later!),
and optional full length extras 💖🔥
Any tips even $5 or so will help me so TY <3
*Tip $10 or more in appreciation of my content and support of my art and I’ll send you extra videos — some sfw some naughty — from this set! 🥰
💖 $25 will receive a penetration video 💖
💖 $49 will receive a fuck machine video 💖
💖 $69 will receive all of the above 💖
💖 Tips over $100 will receive a surprise bonus content: a new sex tape* ??? 💖
I put a few items on my wishlist (in bio) as well, if anyone wants to help get some items for the art show, something for home decorating, or treat me to some summertime lingerie 👙🍌 That would be very much appreciated, but of course always optional ❤️
I will absolutely send pictures from the show!! I hope to take a lot and post a lot. For tippers, I’ll take exclusive secret naughty ones 😉🤫
I realize also I posted about the ✨ apartment tour ✨ video nearly a month ago, and I finally got around to actually filming and posting it. Even tho it may take me forever sometimes cause my executive dysfunction is horribly slow lately, I do respond to everyone and post everything I plan on. Now I have a date and a deadline to create a fire under my ass, the desire to create art, and the help to make it happen. I’m thankful to you for having faith in me 💖 🗺
Thank you so fuckin much!!! I truly appreciate any and all support, especially when it’s something that’s more innocent (yet naughty), SFW, and artistic. I cannot thank you enough if you support! (Thus, I offer you my hardcore porn and explicit videos. Artists gotta fund their craft somehow!!) 💖💖💖
Hear ye, hear ye! Oh, long winded post! Thank you so kindly for the love on my posts, the patience with me being less active at the moment, and the empathy towards my situations. I haven’t been sleeping, I get like 3~hrs a night and then feel on edge for the rest of the day, and the circumstantial stress in my life kept accumulating. I feel like the past few weeks I’ve been on the edge of a major nervous breakdown, and trying to contain it is like a full time job.
Apologies if I’m getting to messages late and not posting as much. I *will* get back to everything, but I would rather take my time with quality responses instead of feeling pressured and rushed to respond fast. My irl health comes first. In times like these, my competence and self-trust goes out the window, and I’m afraid of having interactions with people because I’ll say things that are too doomery and depressing. It’s unsexy. I’ll be sexy again soon tho, everything is temporary. This too.
Btw, you can always feel free to share if anything in your life is bothering you. My inbox is open for shit like that. I’m not a medical professional so I don’t dole out advice, but sometimes it just helps venting to someone who will listen, to some stranger on the internet, about dramas and traumas. You guys see my demonic e-tantrums all the time, so don’t feel bad about emotionally unloading if it’s really needed.
Good news: I do have plans for beautiful content this week when I am feeling a bit more functional, and am delighted to show you this photo dump of ye olde Renaissance Pleasure Faire! 🧚♀️ 🤍🏰
I hope you enjoy my sfw pics with no nudity. The video with the changing outfits has some nudity tho ( ^ω^ )
It’s been a while since I got out into the world.
Honestly I get anxiety when I’m photographed by someone who’s not me because I always look fat in the pictures. I know “my angles” so I can capture my body in a flattering way; through someone else’s lens I feel fat. The angles are all wrong. But I don’t get photographed often and my outfit was really cute, so these will have to do. I can’t stand looking at them, but I know other people would be delighted. It’s some fucked up mental gymnastics but whatever. This shouldn’t be a problem, but when I’m stressed out, sleepless, restless, I get irritable. I hate feeling this way. Again, I am working on it and I will try to sleep.
How do you guys sleep? Do you have insomnia issues and if so, how do you deal with it? Cause I know 2-4 hrs a night is horrible not just psychologically but physically as well — you age faster, have dark circles and sallow skin, and embody an appearance of slow decay.
Keeping up a facade of happiness and sexiness takes more effort than you may think. It’s so easy to be like “positive vibes” “just be happy” “just do yoga and eat healthy” but when you have complex traumas and psychological conditions, it’s not that easy. You can do all of those things and more, and still exist in a state of daily suffering. It’s 24/7 of contending with intrusive thoughts, hypervigilance, subtle changes in medication, and trial+error of rearranging your routine to make any, just any small part, of your life a little bit more comfortable. I know I am far from the only person who struggles with things like this, and other content creators do too. The women who make your smut have deep internal lives sometimes filled with pain. Likewise, I aim to humanize my subscribers too, because the parasocial aspect of this goes both ways. Y’all are people with lives, jobs, routines, feelings, preferences, pets, responsibilities, struggles, joys. It’s important to address our humanity, the agony and the ecstasy, the wonderful pleasure and enduring misery of it all.
I will show you a preview: I launched my website for my Cyberhorny project.
💖 https://cyber-horny.com 💖
Much more to come soon but check it out and lmk what you think! Thine elven maiden wishes thee a lovely Monday, a lovely week, and a happy mood 💖💕
Good morning, say it back 💕✨ May is mental health awareness month, thought you could use a juicy pic like this for lowering your bloodpressure and raising your serotonin levels. Did it work? 💝
Hello m’lords! I’m going to a ren faire today so I will be out of office all day till the evening! 🏰💕
Sorry about the slower activity this weekend, it’s been a lot this week and I’m extremely stressed out and need a mental health break from internet for my personal sanity. I wish I could fully, entirely, completely take a break, but I can’t ignore the financial element tugging at me so hence the tipping prompts and new sexual content. I know it can be annoying and I apologize, I hate when creators have “tip x” “tip me this” every single fucking post, but for a smaller account like mine who doesn’t send PPV it’s the way it is at the moment. Maybe I will start sending PPV again soon. There’s never any pressure to tip cause seriously I get the financial struggle, but if my content is something that can make you happy and you want to support, then I encourage it. I’ll log on tonight to answer messages if I can mentally handle it, and to send out content if you bought anything 💕🥺 (messages with tips get auto-pinned to the top of my inbox, so I see those first, but I do get to everything eventually even if it takes my ADHD ass a while, so I am not ignoring anybody it just taking me a while to do anything even simple tasks right now) 🧝♀️🖤 thank you from this lil elven dame 🖤
Relevant content: a video of my two elf princess sex tapes, one from 2020 and one from 2021 🧝♀️⚔️ To see the full things (they’re ~15mins each so total a half hour of content) which feature butt plugs, succing and riding a rainbow dildo, and visible orgasms where I cum like the wettest water temple in hyrule, 🏞 you can tip me $25 for one or $35 for both. This is actually the lowest prices I have for my explicit content. If you want to see a moaning maiden in high quality HD, I’m your wench 🖤🖤🖤
Also!! I have a list of content to film this week to post on the feed, so a lot more will be cumming up soon in this lovely third week of May:
— a topless tour of my apartment 1 year later — Hentai & Crack Vol 2 starting videos —customized videos for those who ordered — GG content — don’t be shy! order a custom, cock rate, or sexting from me ✨
Thank you so much for your patience, support, and hornyness! I hope thine Saturday is absolutely magical 💫
