Hiii oh my gosh I cannot express how fun Cyber Castle was and how thankful I am for all the friends and artists and supporters ππ Here are some pics from it!
ππ¦ More to come soon π¦π
Slam a like on this post if you like these pics!! Tip this post $5 or more if you wanna see MORE videos and BTS and stuff!! ππβ¨β¨ π¦
Oh manβ¦ Iβm so thankful to yβall on my little OnlyFans, youβre so amazing for helping my event get funded cuz this is my full time and only job π₯Ήπ Even tho Iβm a small creator I put everything I had into this show and it somehow came together. Having a community feel was really great, the artists and people who showed up to support were just wonderful. There will def be another Castle soon (ish) π
Iβm super exhausted from the weekend but will get back to all messages. I might take some more time off, Iβm not sure yet. I still have yet to unpack my stuff, my house looks like a pig sty lol. Still, this weekend I was reminded of why I make art and why I do this, and it felt really good.
We took a lot of pics so I have so much to look through and post πππ It was also the first time I performed original tracks live in over 2 years and it was so much fun, my diva ass has to do costume changes on stage π All the installations were amazing too, Iβll unpack them more in a Cyber Castle write up.
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PS. Swipe all the way for a cameo from the lovely @anony-mousie and the very talented actors of Breaking Bad who came to my partyβ¦ an honor! π€
This is the weekend of my Cyber Castle show, if Iβm unresponsive these days itβs cuz Iβm decompressing from a long week of art curation and performance π₯΅ Thank you if you support my art, that makes me happy π₯°
Hope you like this back view from my vacation nudes ;) Slam the heart button on these posts if you enjoy my horny creative vibe ππ
Front view π and addendum to my last post: if Iβm offline here, before I post any write ups and Cyber Castle pics on here, you could catch some on my insta story highlights if you follow @ nastyavalentine (which you should! hiii!) π I broke my long off IG streak lol and over two year art show/live music streak to document this shizzzzz on my socials so go show em some love here, there, everywhere ππ₯Ή Porn again and message responses v soon but rn = art hoe time ^o^
My *Cyber Castle* art show is today!!! π Wish me luck? π₯Ίππ Thank you so much if you do π I am so excited to share my vision with the world, and to post documentation.
$5 = good luck, I support you!!β¨ $15 = price of admission ticket, Iβm there in spirit!! π $33 = price of admission ticket and some merch ^o^ $69 = my deepest token of gratitude, horniness, and respect for your cyberhorny art!! ππ¦
My Cyberhorny art show/party is tomorrow !! ππ₯Ήπ₯Ήπ₯Ήπ ahh hii to compensate for not being online these days, a cute topless video featuring my cute ass and cute pillow humping π
On/off π Swipe for heart shaped nipples and again for a heart shaped surprise! If this gets some tips, or over 50 likes (whichever cums first) Iβll post a video from this set π€
The perfect girl of the future 2.0 is here: drives a tesla, wears cute outfits, flashes her boobs and pussy in the backseat. It would be a shame to have this car and not do something HORNY in it. Wanna ride? π
~πUpdateπ~ Hiii! My art show/horniest party ever/high concept rave/immersive experience *Cyber Castle* is this weekend!! ππ¦π
Ahh this is so exciting, nerve racking, all the feels haha. Iβm going to be taking some time to focus on my irl art things. During this time I wonβt be able to make any new content or sex tapes. I want yβall to have some fun on this page still so I am having a half off sale on all premades! I do sales rarely so take advantage of it while you can π
A video from me to you when you scroll thru the slides ππ Like this post if you support my horny art! π π
When Iβm well rested and well finished with my art show I will resume making new content for OF! π₯ Iβm happy to have this opportunity to present my work tho.
I developed the concept of Cyber Castle, made installations for it, and will be doing a performance. Itβs gonna be the cyberhorniest party of them all. Iβll post many pics and video of the event, my outfit changes and art and all things horny/relevant.
After several years of covid preventing any kind of public art practice, Iβm going back to the way I engineered events before. Tbh itβs stressful because I havenβt done it in so long, Iβm socializing every day which Iβm not used to, Iβm marketing, and I have a heavy workload. This means Iβll be less on OF this week (although Iβll still be logging in and checking at least once a day!) and have scheduled posts, sales on sex tapes, and pre-sent PPVs so I donβt entirely lose out on income while working on my project. Donβt want to neglect my OF page which is like my internet home, but I must take care of my real life shit. Gotta keep yβall horny too!! ππππ₯
The entire time this post is up Iβll have a 50% sale on allllll of my sex tapes so you can tip for anything you wanna see, half off π
These are my most recent ones, the campaign for July is about half way there and I would love for it to get all the way there π₯Ήπ₯Ήπ₯Ήπ₯Ή Thank you so fuckin much if youβve contributed !! πππ
Have a horny and beautiful week, much love ππ₯³π₯°π
π₯ July campaign of explicit sex tapes: https://onlyfans.com/352913455/nastyavalentine (repressed Christian girl fucking Jesus dildo; anime girl multiple dragon dildos; tentacle cream pie, and more)
This is the first gif Iβve ever posted on OF!! ππ Do you like it? Cyber Castle and my artistic vision for it got a write up on a nightlife blog, check it out:
Hiii I am in a writing hole today to try and get done all the writing components for Cyber Castle π°π It is in exactly one week holyshit!! Here are some of the pics I didnβt want to post. I may look fat but it wonβt stop me from being iconic. I do feel a bit better today, partially thanks to my meds being refilled.
Honestly? I just want a personal treat ππ₯Ί I want to get my hair done professionally, or to get a massage and rehabilitate my stress, before my art show next week. Do you think Iβve been a good girl and deserve to treat myself after working so hard?
Have I been a good little doll, existing for your pleasure, making every day Nastya Valentines Day? Tip what you like, all tips will be rewarded. Thank you π₯Ίπ
Warning: Extremely emo long talking videos (and pics)β¦. at least thereβs titties. I have errands all day so I will respond to messages and such in the later half of the day. Thank you so much for your patience while I feel like shit for the stupidest reasons and very sorry for the delays
You can skip this post if you donβt want the darksided shit
Not sure why a bath was like the venue for all this nonsense lol but I donβt question the creative impulses when they happen. I took a lot of baths recently and I find it a safe space, a place of healing. My life has had too much stress and overwhelm recently and it comes out in this demonic toxicity of body image pains
My body image is like the first pic in the slideshow recently -_- I donβt even wanna take nude body pics rn I feel fat and bloated. Thatβs primarily why I havenβt been posting new nudes recently. I feel triggered and limited in my body in so many ways
To offset any triggers about my unsatisfactory naked body: pics of my cute kitten, me sexually identifying with an obese animatronic photoshopped mermaid Jack Nicholson (how I feel right now), pic of my stress rash, glamorous outfit pics from when I was hotter and totally random shit that happens to be on this device at this moment in time; not an organized post, this is unhinged af and too quickly written and too poorly written and a toxic wasteland of stream of consciousness ranting
It was/is the biggest compliment to me when someone tells me I look thin, and no one ever tells me that. Iβm emotionally starved for compliments that Iβm physically starved
(and the hypocrisy of it murders me β I literally just had a dream that I was murdered and replaced by a robot version of myself that is more βperfectβ than my irl self. Freud β what is this)
A few weeks ago a friend in unrelated online conversation unsolicitedly estimated my weight at 108 and this upset me horrendously for various reasons including 1. You never ever EVER discuss other womenβs bodies or weights, especially unprompted, much less give them a number, it will Always be derogatory. Knowledge that a friend had a physically-manifesting mental illness should be treated with more consideration. The person also has an ED so should first of all know better to mention numbers online, second of all assigns that number to be fat based on her own distorted thinking, which I see as a betrayal that she sees me as fat. 2. This was around my weight when I was about my heaviest and itβs triggering to me. I feel gross and heavy; Iβm very short barely over 5β so that weight is a high one for my stature. Even in double digits I still look βnormalβ nor βskinnyβ. In general I do not look at my weight at all unless medically necessary at a doctor, which unfortunately I have been to a lot lately. 3. It makes me on a shallow level wonder what people who see me nude online think of my body, when before I was empowered posting nudes and getting compliments, now I start to feel overly exposed like people all of a sudden will think Iβve gotten chubby and I freak out. Itβs also disgusting because I donβt want to contribute to the already prevalent fat phobia in our society and I personally am attracted to curvier women, but when it comes to my self itβs a different story
Being skinny and little and thin was such a part of my identity that now coming back to social reality after covid feels fucked up that Iβve become a fat troll; I find myself regretting recovering from my ED even tho it can literally send someone into death, and itβs hypocritical because I would never think or say this about someone else and provide such a body positive view on my online presence β right now my entire body view is skewed with the perception of going out irl more and having my picture taken: I just hate it so much even tho I love doing shoots. This is why I love OF because I can control my entire image here and find my flattering angles online; at home I have unlimited time to plan a shoot, style myself in flattering outfits, and edit as I wish. At a irl shoot with the pressure and time constraint I find myself making poor decisions and posing fatly in front of someone elseβs camera. My natural body then disgusts me β it affects my anxiety and already despicably low confidence level, and now my income as well because I donβt want to do shoots because I am so disillusioned and triggered. I hope I either lose weight or this feeling goes away magically on its own before Cyber Castle because I would be mortified to do a performance and curate a show while having this anxiety
Fucking first world problems. I fucking hate feeling like this
I talk about this in Cyberhorny too, and try to step outside of myself for objective self awareness, but itβs so hard β the degenerate ways the body is viewed/experienced from within and without, the empty currency of superiority and the self inflicted violence of thinness
Even though many of my chronic health issues are residual from my eating disorder I sometimes unhealthily fantasize about being thin again. Itβs insulting when my weight is estimated at higher than what it is. I hate my curvyness, it doesnβt suit me, and I hate being called thicc or healthy or normal. At the same time, I should set an example to others that you donβt need to be anorexic to be successful β itβs the opposite of sexy β and itβs possible to recover from diseases like this. At my unhealthily thinner days I donβt think I would have had subscribers to my OF. Although, I donβt know, the barely legal look can be appealing in its petiteness. But itβs gross imo
I donβt know why I am talking about this to a (primarily) male audience, itβs not like anyone really cares about these kind of intricacies / mental weaknesses on a porn page. I guess I just need a vent. Iβll probably delete this post tomorrow and need a few days to remedy these thoughts before I start feeling acceptably hot to myself again
In the myriad of hundreds of thousands of creators and bodies online, ranging from stick thin to voluptuously Rubenesque, you subscribed to a woman of average build, not skinny or athletic or Mom bod or obese (although the vile intrusive thoughts in my brain may think so sometimes) β a body thatβs just a canvas and a vessel β which leads me to think that my personality and engagement is what makes me appealing, and the minimal hotness that I have serves as a pleasant eye candy to go with that personalityβ¦ it would not be enough to only post my body
Who died and decided that being skinny was attractive? The book Iβm reading rn *The Beauty Myth* debunks this very well
Yes I am aware of deconstructing the fat shaming that exists in our society β fat should never be a feeling of inferiority, but itβs so ingrained in the kind of someone who had an eating disorder for over a decade. I do what I can to fight these thoughts but brain got hands. Being thin used to be such a part of identity in another life. I wanted to be extraordinary with an incredible stunning body but the truth is my life, my body, is a temple of meaty averageness, which is eh (soul crushing) but something to be embraced in its own way. There is beauty in the ordinary, the average, the mundane. Now I have so much more, so much of my heart and mind and spirit to share, my art and vision and passion, but yeah these thoughts will occasionally creep up and itβs a pitiful discomfort
It upsets me. It kills my already fragile confidence. But if I donβt share my Recovered body and spread the conquest of these thoughts, even if the journey is nonlinear and has setbacks such as this, I would be doing a massive injustice to both myself and anyone reading who may find themselves affected by these things
Sorry again about the delay in activity and thank you for being patient (I also tbh donβt want to answer any messages until Iβm in a less negative and unsexy headspace so a little bit of self care and mindless errands today should help shake this off β donβt worry lol Iβm not like this 100% of the time even tho Iβm in an area of turbulence rn mentally). I hope you have a stress free day and feel good about yourself and treat your mind+body with the care it needs and deserves. Inspire me to do the same
Health is the most important thing we have in this world and it shouldnβt be underestimated. I have only one body to contend with; I donβt have the money to alter it. I can accept it or destroy it, and the latter is not an option. When we lose our faculties itβs suffocating, sometimes literally. Iβve had a health crisis too many, I donβt want any more
I am going to stop this post now because this is why I have a team of therapists
Took some pics for *Cyber Castle* today but idk I have horrible anxiety about working with photographers because I always think I look gross through other ppls eyes! Like on my own I know how to curate a photo but I really deeply fear looking fat so Iβm having a weird set of feels even tho Iβm excited to promote the show ππ΅βπ« Tip me and/or compliment me if you think I look cute and shouldnβt be afraid to post more π³ I will prob delete these off the face of the earth depending on how I feel π I literally feel plus sized π³
Wholesome post lovers: this is like my idea of heaven πΎ I have a few new articles in the works for my Cyberhorny site that should be published in the next week or so. Check out my last one, about commercially available AI companions (wholesome or sexual), and a general dive into parasocial porn. What topics would you like me to engage in sexual discourse with?
Iβll post sultry pics and π₯π₯π₯ documentation of my Cyberhorny art show here but for now you can observe the natural Nastya in very cozy home mode π
Kitty, Breaking Bad, bae slippers, retainer, and not brushing my hair for days ππ Saving the glam for the show! I be on my jesse pinkman ish rn
OnlyBoobs. (π)(π) Donβt really give a f about this pseudo holiday cause fuk the conditions in the USA right now, fuck capitalism and fuck the system, but let freedom ring with these boobs.
First full body nudes I ever took.... I have pillow marks on my ass βοΈ π³ Tip $5 or more if you want to see the entire collection of my first full nudes, thereβs around 30-40 pics in total πΌπ»π
I hope you have a fantastic start to July!! ππ A wholesome sfw photo from my trip before I post any new spicy pics, do you like it?
Thanks for showing me and my page so much love, I hope youβre excited for the Cyberhorny and artistic stuff I have in storeβ¦ letβs have an amazing month π¦
I am off to bed I wish I could lounge on this beautiful couch 4ever π₯Ί
Iβve got Christ between my thighs π³ Hiiii I have new videos for my July therapy and medical campaign π€π Itβs the end of the month and beginning of a new one. June was dark and horrible and I lost my cat Russell, my emotional support animal, but the end of the month was amazing with a romantic getaway and vital time off. My art show *Cyber Castle* is in two weeks. Thereβs a lot going on. I only went to one therapy session last month because I couldnβt bring myself to schedule the rest and all my expenses went towards my art show and other more physically immediate medical bills; I would really like to have proper psychiatric and mental health care this month. I am pretty sure I have to get back on my ADHD medication, or increase my anxiety medicine, I literally cannot focus or concentrate, but that will be up to my doctor.
The first video is a wholesome one, the rest are mostly porn but with some wholesome elements as well β€οΈ
Better care for me = better porn content for you? Win-win? π₯Ίπππ I think so π₯Ί
Btw I am getting back to all messages that piled up while I was away! Sorry itβs taking me a while, the ones with tips are auto pinned to the top of my inbox so I am getting to those first but I get to everything. Thank you so much for your patience β€οΈπ
Ok so here are the videos I have for you :) If you enjoyed these please like this post and lmk if Iβm doing a good job on here, I always welcome feedback <33
*Contributors to this campaign shall receive:
$5 or more = π₯Ί thank you for appreciating my existence and content; I shall send you a surprise π₯Ίπ even the small tips add up for me so I appreciate you dearly
$24 = Good Christian girl JOI follow up: see the body of Christ enter me and part my Red Sea π π₯΅ lots of dirty talk, touching myself with my fingers and giving myself an orgasm
$50 = Anime girl multi dildo experience: in my bed, I use three of them π two Bad Dragon dildos and a vibrator πππ This is seriously like the most I cum so holy shit if you wanna see me gush like a waterfall β¦β¦β¦.. π³ omfg
$79 = Creampie with tentacles ππ π¦ two (2) tentacle cumtube creampie videos + the shower video afterwards π getting very very dirty and filthy, and getting clean π
$99 = bundle of all of the above β₯οΈ
$100 or higher = All of the above + BTS footage, and I mean A LOT of BTS footage π€π if you enjoy listening to me talk and meta commentary and monologue whilst in various stages of nudity thereβs about two hours of content waiting for you* ! π
This will likely be (same as June when I only did one main content campaign) the only major til goal for July. My main priority this month is delivering a great art show.
If this can hit at least 1/4 of the goal by tomorrow morning Iβll post a sexy something from my trip taken by a very amazing photographer π I rarely have pictures of myself taken and have enormous control freakism and body anxiety, but I think because the vacation was so lovely and extremely chill, these came out great. It was a personal highlight for the year. I highly believe that all people should have mandated vacation time yearly. Several times. Fuck capitalism and its stupid fuckin workaholism worship and hustle culture. Itβs important to work hard, but we are extremely overworked as a collective. I have much more to say about this and I write/rant about it all the time so β¦β¦β¦β¦ you know my stance on burnout. I also am finishing up a few articles I was writing for
π https://Cyber-Horny.com π {click to read my writing! ^}
There is a lot to watch here! What did you think of these videos? π₯Ί
If these are not your vibe, you can request a custom video or specialized personalized service :) My tip menu is pinned to my profile. π
Thank you amazing people so much if you contribute to this even a small amount, it truly truly extremely means a lot to me, thank you for caring about my well being even if itβs in a shallow way that brings you porn and pleasure. Thank god for porn! β₯οΈβ₯οΈβ₯οΈ
