Ever get tired of fake fucking? It's annoying, but still, I ..

Ever get tired of fake fucking? It's annoying, but still, I watch it. This isn't fake fucking. This is fucking that makes me want to feel your dick pushing sperm as deep into me as it will go. This is the kind of cock that makes me feel alive and like a woman. I do things for cocks like this that I probably shouldn't do... but I can't help myself. Please let me get a cock in my guts tonight. Man, I have had a cock drought over the last week. I don't know what's going on, but my uterus needs a good hosing down with cum. Step it up, boys. My pussy will thank you. This is going to be a long post, so be warned. You may want to quit now. This is true, and I'm so happy about this today! I finally got asked by some ding dong chick what my "sexual orientation" was. I told her, "I am sexually disoriented." She asked me what I meant. I said exactly that. I'm sexually disoriented. She then asked me if I had preferred pronouns. I said no, I like them all equally. Woke people. Truly an embarrassment to humanity. They are talking about Christmas already. It's not even October. What do I want for Christmas this year? Sex toys. Lots of them. It's really all I want, and I'm being truthful. Not trying to be little Ms slutty for an audience on Onlyfans. I can't think of anything else besides sex toys. I go through them so fast. So few last. Dildos last unless you use the wrong lube or leave them on the dresser and the sun hits them. They do some bizarre shit when the sun through the window bakes them for a while. It's not a good idea to have a family Christmas, and everyone opens their presents. "Oh, look, you got an anal butt plug... so did I, but mine's blue!" You know what I really want. The most realistic 7 - 8 inch cock that can be found. I put a little mirror in front of me when I masturbate with dildos so I can see them slip in and out of me. The more realistic they look, the easier it is for me to pretend it's some hunk pumping twins into me. Pictures. When I rub one out, I have just started looking at pictures and .gifs. I think I like watching the GIFs best because they focus on one thing and keep replaying it. I used to watch videos. But I focus on one thing, and videos advance, moving away from what I'm watching them for. For example, I like watching a close-up of a cock emptying sperm into a pussy. I like the way that spot behind the balls pumps and twitches and the way the shaft expands every time it does. I pretend it's me that's getting my guts stretched and sprayed down with jizz. I know, it's weird, but it's what I do. I have no idea what you guys do, but I know you watch porn, so it has to be similar, so don't give me crap, Mr! Anyway, videos show me what I'm after, but then they move on to something else, or they end. I have this endless specific sexual fantasy loop going on in my head, and it gets interrupted when they change positions. Then I have to rewind it back and start all over again. So photos and gifs have been my answer. Lately, photos of massively stretched pussies filled with sperm are my go-to for rubbing one out. I love to think that's me being left stretched and stupid, leaking some dude's sperm and thoroughly fucked to the point I can't stand up. I like to replay that scenario over and over in my head until I cum. And when I cum, I do mean I cum hard. Seriously intense. It's some of the most intense orgasms ever. They don't last as long as the ones I have from getting plowed by a dick, but they are sharply more intense. Gifs... when I watch gifs, it's almost always a close-up of a guy emptying his balls into a pussy. It clearly shows that spot pumping away, and then he slowly pulls his dick out, and sperm just pours out. Then it starts over again. I like that. It makes me think of Connor drowning my guts with jizz. A few minutes of that never-ending loop and I'm having another one of those insanely intense orgasms. This is probably way too much information. Why in the world would I tell you this? I don't know. I guess I'm curious as to whether other people do the same thing as I do. I'm probably asking the wrong crowd as the majority of you are dudes. Most of the chicks I know claim they don't rub one out that often just for fun. One told me the only time she plays with herself is if she gets paid for a cam show. These chicks don't know what they are missing. I have told them that, but they think I'm just being funny. I'm serious. Very serious when it cums to getting myself off. Keeps me yung and wet. I like being both. @u125291845