What did I do today? I sucked Connor off in his grandparent'..

What did I do today? I sucked Connor off in his grandparent's garage while they were in the house. That was fun. I got sperm all over my shirt because it went down the wrong hole when I tried to swallow it, and I coughed it back up. It was a goodbye blowjob as I'm leaving for a few days. I wanted to make sure to give him something to hold him over till I get back. So, I had to change shirts. Normally I would walk around and look at it, all proud of myself, but I have some conservative house guests. Anyway, Connor was happy, which makes me happy, so it's a win-win. There's a book below, so I warn you, it may put you to sleep. I have to post at night when I have a quiet house, and everyone is in their rooms. Terry did beat Scott out of the contract he was worried about. Now I want Terry's dick in my ass, making me beg for his cum more than ever. I want to video it and send it to Scott. I know. It sounds awful, but it makes me so wet thinking about it. I should probably shut up about it. Scott is driving me to Ohio tomorrow. I'm pretty sure he doesn't want his worst enemy to put his dick in my ass. But I do! So much so that I did a terrible thing and looked up his company online. It only has his company number, but I'm sure he'll remember who I am and take my call if I decide to call him. Scott would probably be getting that video this week if I wasn't going on this trip. Why don't I do mainstream porn anymore? It's a good question that was asked of me. The short answer is it isn't worth it. Shooting a porn video has become more of a badge of honor than anything else. It doesn't pay well anymore. It hasn't paid well since the days of Vivid and the contract girls. You never hear the truth about porn unless you are in porn. It's one of those dirty little secrets they try and keep hush hush. Literally, the sex sucks. It's not just me saying this, it's pretty much the standard opinion, but they aren't going to tell you this. All your going to hear is how they came so hard they had to go to the emergency room. They can't tell you otherwise, or it would be the same thing as a magician showing you how he did the trick while doing it. So, why do porn? To get name recognition as its good exposure, one can get a bigger Twitter/Instagram account and sell more on OnlyFans by shooting mainstream porn. That's where the money is at. One does what one has to do to make that money. I don't have to do it. I don't have outlandish bills to pay, I own my own home, I invested wisely, and I'm enjoying life. Most people don't know that I did a vast amount more behind the scenes back in the day than I ever did in front of the camera. I only did scenes because I wanted to do them. It wasn't for the money. I just wanted to do them. Not many chicks can say that honestly. There really isn't one scene that I'm not happy with. But I turned down a lot of scenes, and I still do. Why? Because I'm not going to get off. I will spend between 3 to 12 hours grinding out a porn video, and my pussy won't be cumming for my efforts. Yes, I know. It appears that we are cumming. We aren't. No matter what anyone tells you... they aren't. Maybe some swinger videos they do, and I have cum myself making those, but mainstream porn... not a chance in hell. The thing is, porn isn't about me cumming. It's about me presenting to you the fantasy of me cumming and doing whatever it is that hits your dick trigger just right. The problem is I like sex more than most people, guys included. Having shitty sex so I can collect a payday once in a while isn't worth it to me. And this is why I'm here, guys. It's the only place I can share things where people don't try to get me committed to a sex addiction rehab clinic. It's also why I don't collaborate with anyone else. Collaboration is another way of saying, let us pretend to have sex so we can sell it on Onlyfans. Which, again, is excellent if the fantasy of it makes your dick hard. However, what makes my chick dick hard is real dudes, with dicks that don't require a needle full of Caverject to stay hard, pumping my holes full of baby batter. I'm not bitter at porn at all. I love it. I get up every morning and watch it. My pussy just isn't willing to pass up real dick for fantasy dick.