• making love • Who are you masturbating for? Have you ever..
Added 2024-01-11 21:56:35 +0000 UTC• making love • Who are you masturbating for? Have you ever stopped to ask? Sex with yourself can be like scratching an itch, but it can also be an act of worship. Turning the screens off, letting myself be present. It didn’t used to be this way. I was repulsed by my body & felt guilty for touching it. Purity culture had taught me that loving my self was sinful. Everytime I needed to scratch that itch- the most human of necessities, I was torn between self disgust and desire. It took many years but I’ve found my inner peace, the god inside me worth worshiping more than any old man in a book I used to read. To get to heaven I need not travel farther than between my own knees. Focusing on what I’m feeling in my body, the sensations beneath my skin that tell me where to touch. Focusing on the way my chest rises and falls, how am I breathing? Am I holding back sounds I might be embarrassed to make even though I’m alone? Opening my mouth to let my voice out and hearing how oh so delicate it sounds as the vibrations hit the air. Relaxing into the comfort of knowing there is no one here to judge me other than myself. There is a level of self love that you gain when you know YOU aren’t your worst critic anymore. When you don’t have to fear the voices between your ears, or face taunting eyes in the mirror. To let go, to use more than one toy at once, to allow yourself to try new things and give into the taboo. You should’nt feel any shame , when the one you’re making love with, is you.
