the writer, the actor, the director, the producer i had a mo..

the writer, the actor, the director, the producer

i had a moment the other night, when syn and i were filming and they were underneath me, where i couldn't believe that this is my life.

it's my job to make healthy, intimate, kinky porn with someone that i love with my whole being. i get to be creative, spontaneous, true to myself, and i have so many of u that are willing to humor me and my whims. i'm allowed to be tired and distracted and take care of my very very high maintenance body and brain.

i think one of the biggest aspects is what sex work requires of me. i don't know if a lot of people talk about it, but this line of work is hard, very very hard—in many different ways. ur dick, for instance ;) no but truly. showing up to this platform authentically holds a mirror up to me in a way that an intimate relationship might. what i'm trying to say is that it asks me to grow and change and continue to be the best version of who i am (or else).

i know that for some of u this is just porn, which i completely understand and take no offense to, but it's so much more than that for me. i think it's safe to say that syn feels similarly. the work that we do together and separately off camera is very sacred to us and to the creative process and the art that comes from it.

i've been told over and over that people love the connection that we have and appreciate that the content that we create feels real in a sea of the fake and scripted. i don't know why it's still hard for me to believe that we're succeeding at capturing what we set out to portray, but it is.

so thank u for seeing us and worshipping us and jerking off to us. we couldn't do any of this without ur support and i'm so excited for what's to come.

this is just the beginning~

♡ 𝖗