Weird thoughts time I’ve never been too open with you but t..

Weird thoughts time I’ve never been too open with you but these times make me want to talk… I guess it’s some kind of fear to die and to be left “unknown”. Of course I should be careful with the information I let out so I hope my brain stays in the right place. I know what you all came here for in a first place but I know many of you are now staying here for ME and my story. None of you know me well, I’ve never talked much, I rarely show my personality and I never see reasons to tell much about myself, I don’t feel interesting and I don’t feel interested in lives of strangers. Some people think it’s arrogance. I don’t think it is, it’s who I am on the internet and also who I am in my daily life. I don’t have many friends, the ones I have don’t know much about me either. I have a hard time getting to know new people and attending new places. I usually feel/act foreign, wild and silent. Don’t get me wrong, I do have fun, I do joke around and I do let few people see some sides of my personality, it’s just very rare and literally takes years. What I thought about… is you, people who don’t know anything about me, seem so caring and curious right now, checking on me, asking how am I doing, seeing if I’m still alive. It really feels weird that some people all around the world think of me and worry. It does feel good though but still weird. I’ve only been gifted flowers couple times in my life and only for some holidays, never any expensive gifts, but you - strangers - send me tips on here and ask for nothing back, even though I said I’m doing ok and not in need of money. Feels good, still weird though. Why would you care? Because you find me beautiful, sexy? It wouldn’t be enough. You only see what I show and only know what I let you… and it’s not much..How Is it enough for you to care?