Uuaahhh. I have intense night behind me. Yesterday I visited..
Added 2023-03-12 01:41:49 +0000 UTCUuaahhh. I have intense night behind me. Yesterday I visited shaman. I was facing lot of deep dark places inside of me. Which feels good. But on other hand my body is today so tired. ... Main dark place within me I was facing and exploring at night was my fear of connection which has its very deep roots in childhood. Also I can clearly see how much my past relationship (few years ago) hurt me. And how it makes me more vulnerable to encounters with men, and makes me overly selfprotective also around other people, in fear that my energy will get sucked by them. But as I write, I don't wanna sound tragic. I don't feel tragic at all. I feel light and soft in this moment. I just had a need to express this strong turmoil. Also tommorow I will for peace of mind try to schedule some photos in a case I will be without internet - like today. Internet here is not always ideal. Today even electricity didnt work. And with big rains in next days we may can get flooded by river. ... It is bit unpredictable :D ... But somehow all exciting to me. 😁 Sending out there Big Big Hug ❤️ And may you enjoy every bit of your day ❤️ ... *my heart is literally falling out of my chest now, ahh.*
