Insane is to look back and see that you are no longer there,..
Added 2022-07-14 00:01:17 +0000 UTCInsane is to look back and see that you are no longer there, insane is to have to dream and not idealize you anymore.
Insane is to have to accept that we are no more, that I must allow myself to love and not wait for you anymore.
Insane is that I tried, I tried and it didn't work out.
First: because I still carry your thorn in my side.
Second: My days are clouded since I don't hear your laughter.
Third: I went out with many people and none of them managed to penetrate or come close to what you achieved with just your gaze.
Fourth: I met someone it is difficult for me to risk, in the end I tried and failed... from that experience I understood that nothing and no one will be or will be equal to you.
Fifth: The hope of seeing you again is still present.
Sixth: I finally managed to see the light that Javi behind the clouds, with so much fear and insecurity I ruined it again. I have nothing left to fight for.
Seventh: My body manifests what scourges my soul, I faint and wake up in your arms, your first words returned me to nothing, you made me feel that I was worthless, that I should not expect anything, that no one would ever give anything for me, that even with my heart in my hands they can snatch it from me, throw it down a ravine to be devoured by worms.
Eighth: I was left blank...
Written by: me @Justkeik 💜
