tip whatever you like. i’ve made the content available to vi..

tip whatever you like. i’ve made the content available to view. this is a campaign for my team of therapists. this is how a depressed girl masturbates.

this is from a recent day when i was really horny and watching the ‘hub, gagging myself with my panties and using my jackrabbit. it was a rare time that i just randomly masturbated in my civilian clothes with no cosplay or anything. i actually masturbated and edged myself for hours but only filmed a few parts for only myself to look at. wasn’t even planning on posting this tbh but i have no other new content to share.

i ruined two pairs of panties that day. tip if you enjoyed it 😋 it’s not limited to just the ones on the screen, you can tip whatever. higher than 20$ will receive the other videos i made that session. it’s filmed by photo booth app so it’s kind of low fi, but still sexy i think. higher than 100$ will receive significantly more content to keep you horny including the video filmed on my phone where i cum with an added sex toy to this jackrabbit. if this campaign sucks, i’ll delete it and try with something else, maybe film something else with like a cosplay or something more performative. i guess this is kind of boring compared to my other stuff but idk i was having a good time here i came a lot and got my little serotonin fix. god gives his tightest pussies the smallest serotonins.

i see literally two therapists (i have made the joke of “needing a team of therapists” for years now) and it helps but i need more than talk therapy right now at this point in my life. i’m seeing a psychiatrist at the end of the month bc my mental state is incapable of feeling true deep happiness, i have only fleeting moments of shallow joy. i constantly wonder wtf is wrong with me. therapy has been helpful in many ways but it’s scary how my therapists have both confirmed my fears about some aspects of my mental state.

i thank you sincerely for all the help funding my sessions and i hope the content you received in return was worth it.

TW but if it wasn’t for therapy i would’ve probably not been here rn to post. i’ve struggled really badly with morbid depressive thoughts for most of my life, probably since jr high but even in childhood i was always very dark and a total edgelord lol. this was the first year i’ve sought professional help. (well last year too i dipped my feet in the water for PTSD counseling but i lasted a short while. this year it’s a commitment to mental health during one of the most collectively traumatizing times in our generation’s consciousness. i know i’m not the only one struggling and you guys are too. i’m here to talk about stuff like this, my page is a non judgmental safe space as cheesy as that sounds). my cats help me a lot too, i love my emotional support pussys 🐈‍⬛ 🐈‍⬛ 🐈‍⬛

i guess i really don’t have to explain myself to you, or why i try so hard. it might sound selfish since primarily i’m offering my services for your pleasure, and i’m a people pleaser who always prioritizes other people’s needs over mine, but this page has always been first and foremost like a diary to me. strangers get to peep into it if they want. a train wreck with nudes. so if i post cringe, it’s just me talking to myself. i don’t have a specific business strategy, i just post what feels right for me even if it’s lame and hope for the best, but maybe that’s the wrong approach. that’s why i asked for feedback and what you would like to see.

what made you subscribe to me in the first place? was my content exceeding or disappointing to your expectations? those are things i think about. i’d love to be a better creator. my kanye sized ego tells me sometimes that i’m the best, and sometimes that i suck ass and should quit and just let myself fully implode into nothingness. self sabotage is a cruel mistress.

anyway, i’ve made the content available to view. it’s a genuine moment of hornyness. i said i wasn’t gonna make another emo post but 😓