It’s so strange, sometimes I get the weirdest feeling of nos..

It’s so strange, sometimes I get the weirdest feeling of nostalgia (already a strange emotion) while filming. You’d think porn has zero sentimentality but I think sex/attraction/horniness is very strongly tied to emotion. The Blade Runner film/soundtrack/aesthetic always makes me feel a certain way, even when I’m as “unsentimental” as filming in the nude. For me, I feel like it strengthens my relationship to sexuality when deep and strange emotions are involved. Somehow that’s how fetishes are formed within each of our subconscious love maps. Maybe that’s why I cosplay these characters year after year hahahah 🕊

Does porn ever illicit feelings in you beyond just being horny and jerking it and wanting to cum? Or is it just a one-off thing? For a girl it’s so different, I have to really be in the emotional headspace to make the sex… a very nice! Demisexual? Sapiosexual’s worst nightmare? 😎

Through the character of Rachael (and Pris and Joi as well, but not as much as Rachael) I do start to understand why I become appealing as a digital sex doll of sorts, and beyond. A human within a machine. Humanizing the digital. Rachael really, really thinks she is a human. Does she? Is she? I wrote a few pieces about this fragmentation of the self as a digital sex worker.

🌟 https://cyber-horny.com/post/ai-or-die-a-commentary-on-parasocial-interaction-in-horny-cyberspace 🌟

(Here is one ☝️ ^ and I’ve posted my “Planet Bimbo” writing before, about SW and alienation… if you missed it, and want to read it, lmk cuz I’ll re-post it) 💕🛸

I think it’s wonderful and fascinating and subjective to to assign depth to sex work — all my life I’ve been used to the emotions of feeling out of place, not quite really there, confused about where and how I fit in this world. Rachael is kind of like that too. Pris is meant to be a pleasure model. Joi provides emotional support and is a pocket girlfriend — to me it’s like a personification of stuff like OnlyFans. Neither a fantasy-based customizable e-lover or a sex doll, Rachael is at this destabilizing precipice of alienation and belonging, humanity and artifice, manipulation and trust. She’s so fragile despite being built as an exquisite piece of machinery. Theres a sadness to her that I deeply identify with. There’s also arguably really no answers with her, only questions. Plus, she’s really hot lol 🖤

I always thought that Pris was was the fan favorite because she’s the blonde hottie who dies orgasmically, and Rachael is the weirder one who stirs the deeper shit… but the feedback I get about Rachael in my cosplays and conversations makes me reconsider that.

Ok anyway lol enough of my long winded emo pseudo philosophy, enjoy this beautiful nude video 🤍 So much more to cum from this shoot. I think porn has an intelligence and through my Cyberhorny project I want to reveal that. Not to be all “internet artist ego” but I really do think my cosplays and the understandings beneath them evolve every year (as an artist should) and I hope you think so too. Even if not and you’re just here for the surface level porn, I hope I did my job right and this made you horny 🖤🖤🖤

Busssss and nut to this sexy AI babe! Okay!