Venting ahead but hopefully my naked Sylvia Plath pics make ..
Added 2024-01-04 17:53:56 +0000 UTCVenting ahead but hopefully my naked Sylvia Plath pics make up for it haha 🩵🩵💋 Last year I was struggling immensely with trichtillomania - a stress response that resulted in me pulling my hair out like crazy subconsciously, and creating an embarrassing bald spot at the top of my head that was very visible from the back or for ppl significantly taller than me. I could cover it up in pics, or putting on wigs for content, but knowing it was there bothered the shit out of me
I did a campaign for a Fitbit-like device that would vibrate whenever I did the motions that raised my hands up to my hair, it reached its goal and I ordered the device. It took months, many months to even curb the habit, but it’s so much better now. I had talked about the compulsion w my therapist and while the talk therapy was cathartic, it was the device that gradually helped me. Now my hair is growing out very awkwardly from that place but at least it’s going untouched and can be allowed to grow
It really means so much to me when you guys contribute to my campaigns and help me reach my goals! The campaigns work and when they reach their goals it’s greatly helpful!! Most of my campaigns haven’t been reaching their goals lately, for the past year or so, but I’m still gonna keep doing them, especially when I really need things like therapy and medical visits and items like that device. That was just one case of tangible proof that came out of how OF helps me. Ppl demonize and degrade sex workers but we’re just people doing a job - one I would argue is actually very helpful in the fabric of society, much tougher than it appears, and takes a lot of courage to do. Personally, even the act of posting nudes is a radical one for me and it’s been amazing for my own body confidence. I seriously appreciate everyone here, all of you who love to look at me, purchase my content, order services and enjoy my posts, even just by liking them!
I’ve noticed that my posts hardly get any likes anymore, which is why I set them all to “temporary”. If you haven’t seen my latest posts, give them a looook 👀 I’ve also noticed that whenever I post videos they never do well, so I end up deleting them because they don’t really get a response. I wanna post more vids in the future cause I think I make great ones, but I already have a ton up here so I will likely save my video efforts for customs and private shows and the like 😋 Are less people using the platform, or do my posts just suck now lol? Idk I try to make them as good as possible, sexy and genuine, with a lot of variety, but maybe that’s not enough. What do you guys wanna see?
I have over 14k files in almost 2000 posts for you spanning 4 years, to browse here just with your initial subscription. I love to share many aspects of myself with you, from mundane life things to sexual content, and I’m thankful for the support that goes towards my dealing with my traumas, surviving in this fucked up world, and putting my art out there. I often get analyses paralyses and struggle with posting, marketing, promo, advertising etc / basically all the administrative organizational things that aren’t strictly creative (which is where I shine) ✨🖤 Unfortunately so much of online existence is advertisement-based and not creatively inclined.. and I have so many moments where I want to give up and quit cause of immense discouragement and demoralization. Ultimately what’s been keeping me here is your support, all the kind words, the random tips, the sweet messages and the like - validation is highly motivating for me! I’m working on a little side book about that now, the Cyberhorny discourse of validation 💖
I published my first book last year, about my horny dream analysis, and hope to continue the momentum. Everyone who is here subscribed to me has been a huge help towards moving forward in my creative goals and in case I don’t say this enough, I appreciate you immensely 🩵🩵🩵 btw, a few ppl who have ordered signed books - I’m getting them packed and ready and once I confirm everyone’s info I’ll be finally taking them to the post office!!!! So you’ll have a sexy care package in ur hands soon 😋
Sorry for the loooong emo girl rant, I promise sexy pics are always coming 💕 if anyone wants to get me any cute stuff like new wigs, outfits, swordssssss I have a wishlist and always love taking photo shoots w new things!
Hope ur having a beautiful first week of the new year - and if you see this post on your feed pls like it so I know it’s been seen 😭
