Guys I’m torn and upset and lost and idk what else to do.. I..

Guys I’m torn and upset and lost and idk what else to do.. I just start to cry every so often bc I’m just tired and at a loss of words for what I’m experiencing … I’ve wasted so much money on drs the last month and a half I had to pay for a ent out of pocket on Friday .. i had a gut feeling before taking the medication I was given to do research before taking it, I’ve been given the wrong medications, even the ear drops are not for me. My ear drum is perforated and I was sent drops that cant be used on perforated ear drums, I was sent an antibiotic for fungus not even for my ear, it’s not meant for ear infections the side affects are life threatening like it can rupture your aorta, your tendons, it can damage your nervous system permanently it can cause hearing loss, it can rupture your liver and kidneys the list goes on.. I saw a freaken specialist.. dr’s don’t know shit all they do is play guessing games with ppl in hopes some random medication works.. So much money has been spent and I’m still suffering … I’m so done .. I feel so lost right now I don’t know what to do. I can’t afford much more I haven’t even been able to create content.. idk what to do .. I’m so sad so heart broken so disappointed. The health care system is garbage. Not having insurance and paying out of pocket to have no resolution.. its baffling i can’t believe I’m back at the starting point with no clue what to do. I have had several break downs bc I feel so lost. I can’t believe this is really happening this is bullshit. how can a specialist ok medications that actually worsen the issue I have in my ear and send me a antibiotic that literally is life threatening when i don’t have fungus. I’m so sorry for the lack of content .. I wish all this was just a bad dream..