Hi everyone. I am so sorry to still be gone. I've been barel..
Added 2021-10-06 19:33:54 +0000 UTCHi everyone. I am so sorry to still be gone. I've been barely staying alive. Someone sent me my address and my ptsd has made it to where I can't even eat or leave the house. I am so embarrassed and ashamed to be so broken. But I know I'm strong and things will get better. I'm sorry you came here expecting more from me. For an entire year I loved this job, I was so happy and around the time my parents death anniversary came up (September) I just broke down. I don't want to have to apologize for being human but I am. I'm so sorry I let you down. I'm so sorry I let me down. But please just give me a break. Think about the lowest you've ever been and please empathize with me as a human being. This world is such a dark and unhappy place. Sex made me feel alive and happy, I didn't have to worry about anything. I want to go back and I swear I will be soon. Just don't give up on me. And if you do that's okay too. But please don't think I'm being deceiving, I'm barely staying alive. I'm barely affording my bills. I'm barely hanging on. Okay?
