I need to talk for a second. About something super personal..

I need to talk for a second. About something super personal ig. Last year I miscarried a baaby. From a man who I need to stay far far FAR away from. I didn’t want another chiild. I didn’t need another one And I sure as fuck couldn’t afford it. I dream about him. The babyyy I never met. I felt him inside of me for months. So much so that I had to go back and get a a second opinion about the miscarriage. I’ve NEVER wanted more than one kiddddoo and now I feel incomplete most days. It’s hard to understand and I know sometimes my life prolly sounds like some depressing novel but i like to think I can handle this shiiit lol I’m by no means the best mother however I’m a good one and anyone that knows me would agree I give everything to him I’ve devoted my life to him. AS ALL PARENTS SHOULD. with all that being said. Yesterday someone came into work and said “I got drunkkk tonight bc my gf is pregnant and idk what to do I don’t want it and she won’t even talk about abortion orrrr adoption” ext. it went on and on. ***IF YOU ARE HAVING SEX WITH SOMEONE YOU NEED TO BE PREPARED TO HAVE A FUCKING CHIIILD*** People are allowed to be stressed about becoming a parent but please please PLEASE don’t run your mouth about not wanting kids to people you don’t know. Because shit could trigger someone big time. I hope that he realizes how amazingly lucky he is to have brought a new life into the world. Some people try and try for years and can never accomplish that. Something sobriety has brought me is extreme empathy and thoughtfulness Mostly what im rambling on and on about is try to think before you speak. Just try. Happy Monday guys. It’s raining and im kinda in a mood. Cheer me up ✨